Now that I have started my new life I feel like the void of my heart has increased in me.The pit of emptiness ,sadness and loneliness has increased in my heart.In my life i have lost enough,but I still I can't keep up with the pain of loss.The void that it (pain) first created is only increasing like a black hole. I miss the ones lost in this whole gap of 15 years,but I also cherish the new ones I got I have met a lot of people in this span of time , but none can replace "Re" in my life. she is just special,in a way that no one can even match her energy. her absence pains me the most . I don't know but she had an intimidating yet comforting and cool aura around her . when it came to being the monitor or the leader she was strict,intimidating,scary; but as a frnd she was cool and funny the popular girl type person ; as a student she was ideal,topper and also a helper to the weaker ones. but if you ask me to me she was my older sis,my vibe and my fellow veteran army. our frndship more like enmity dates back to our middle school days. to you it might sound like a cliche story of enemies to frnds but to us it's an emotion. on this occasion of frndship day I would like to take you on our bumpy ride.
and to you re it's advice to listen to "memories"
6 years ago,the moth of may, year 2018
we were sitting and waiting for our tutor to arrive from his talk with the parent of new student from behind she looked like a senior with that height and the length of hair.Sir then finished his convo and came back to our class and introduced her as our new classmate she came and sat next to me as i was the only girl their LOL introduced herself as **RE** ***** ****(no names are revealed) and offered me the hand for frndship due to my past trauma I was on cloud nine and we vibed instantly together.
sometime in the mid of 6th grade
we both had a big fight again .i didn't get that time why she was a bit cocky(no hard feelings but it's my 11 year old's pov and we both at that time were cocky) and always acting like she was a princess no a dictator that we all need to obey ( writing this now makes me laugh my ass off),she is nuts and i don't know why my childhood bff is also taking her side.
sometime in 7th grade,
Ok so we are back to talking, by that I mean rare talks on weather. ok it's awkward and we are in different secs so it doesn't matter much.
in march 2020
ok it's lonely nut who cares i have this lovely dramas to help. wait RE also watches dramas omo. damm thats much and the dramas are nice too she got some taste. a whole personality filp i like that.
in 9th grade when school just opened
so she and her so called aunty are being too bossy. complaining about us even without fault huh. wait till my bros gonna kill their pride in sec. and i was so wrong into thinking she changed but that's alright atleast we both can be together with just our rash singing. who does she thinks she is ploting me against my only 2 frnds.
in the begining of grade 10
thank gosh she warned me or else i wold have been more hurt thanks tangxue jei for helping this idiot . thanks for removing their faced infront of me jei. thanks for saving me from some deep venomous frnds.
in this memory lane do you remember the how we started our bounding in class 9if you forgot then let this be a reminder.
down in the memory lane
hey little ram it's off so can we......... stairing at me with hope.i reply affermatively at her why not. lets go the back of girls bench.she said.i replid ok. so we said together 1..2...3.... with that we started singing more like screaming HYLT .
in the back of van
*r*i**bro shall we with the same hope in eyes a puppy stares at it's master hmm.. i reply to her and we start screaming nonsence.
back to present
siting and typing all this are taking me back to those good old days when we were together. when i travel in the same road the memories flash and always make me emotional whenever i listen to 'stay with me it reminds me of you. whenever i eat blueberry choco bar it reminds me of you the time when we did immposible amount of madness together. thinking back to those times makes e sad but know that i will always love you and that crazy side of you TANG XUE JIJI. know that with this story i will always at your side and i promies in future we together will go to our fav BTS CONCERT A PROMISE OF FOREVER FROM MY SIDE
~~~~~~~~~~~PS FROM LITLE RAM
831 words are still less compairing my luv to you
