Confiscated Despairs | Jiminjeong

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Minjeong

My eyes finally started to open, squinting my eyes as the sunlight coming from the curtains of the window hit me.

I felt a body on me, getting startled at the feeling, quickly getting up, as I glanced at my side, I slowly realized who it was.

"Jimin?"

I thought, shocked, wondering what in the world happened last night.

I suddenly remember getting on top of her last night, vividly remembering crossing the line between us.

I hated how easily I could get drunk, the thing I hate the most is the effect it has on me, It somehow turns me into a person I'm not.. I'm a gentle person, not a freaky, rough girl.. well, I could be anything for Jimin at this point.

Still hungover, I just went back to lay down next to her, in the soft cushions of the sofa.

Our friendship is ruined.

I took a deep sigh, my eyes ravaging her, my lips felt frozen as I glanced at my womenhood, the fact that our relationship would probably have to be a secret from the world, even having to hide that to my closest friends pained me, In this country, and this society, would ' us ' even be possible?

I don't want to lose you, Jimin.

Jimin was still soundlessly sleeping, her shirt was slightly lifted up, exposing her toned abs, The sunlight hit her pale skin, reflecting off of it.

How can she be still so breath-taking while sleeping? Her long eyelashes, plump lips that were so good to feel in my lips, I want to live in the moment we had last night.

I spent the next few minutes overthinking about how me and Jimin's friendship is probably ruined at this point, as we did things we shouldn't do.

I slowly got off her, glancing at my environment and saw that no one was there, but I quickly got pulled back on her, feeling a strong pull, a firm grip on my wrist, I looked at Jimin who's eyes were barely open.

She pulled me, placing my head on her collarbone, "Can we stay like this for a little longer? No one's awake yet." Jimin asked, in a pouty tone, I could feel her whining vibrate along her neck.

I nodded, and I guess she felt my nod on her shoulder, as she wrapped her arms around my waist, I can't describe what I'm feeling right now..

A mix of happiness and worry.

I'm happy to have able to experience this with her, but at the same time, I'm worried about our friendship, I really don't want to lose you, I don't want us to separate and forget each other.

"Let go of all your thoughts right now, Minjeong ah." She told me, in a low and comforting tone, I enjoyed her warm embrace, feeling safe, She had a motherly tone in her voice, a comforting way, a way that'll make you want to love and be with her forever.

I feel the happiest with her, and no one else, "Jimin?" I muttered into her collarbone, feeling a sudden movement from her head.

"Do you love me? again.."

I didn't have enough courage to look at her in the eye, she cradled me on her, I felt her hand slowly tapping my back repeatedly as an attempt to caress me.

"I do, Minjeong, I do, but it's all too complicated right now.. can we keep our relationship private? I don't want our careers to be wrecked.."

Jimin proposed the plan to me, It hurts me that our relationship had to be private but I understood that, respecting her unlike the media.

"Yes, but you have to be sure Jimin, I don't want to lose you."

I stated, pushing my face deeper into her neck, fighting the urge to give her another hickey, but that quickly died as I saw the hickey I gave her last night, it was deep red, I knew that hurt.