Confiscated Despairs | Jiminjeong

eight

The next morning, I woke up to see Jimin lying next to me again.

I smiled as I took in the sight of her beautiful face in the first light of morning.

She really is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen.

Does aging not work on her? Even though she's bare-faced right now, it seemed like she didn't age a single bit in her 23 years of life.

I wanted to wake her up with a kiss, but then I remembered the conversation we had last night.

Maybe I should wait... for her to make the first move now.

Sigh,

I hated sophisticated conversations like that.

I've waited a long time to be with Jimin. I could wait a little longer if it's what she wants..

I put my arm around her shoulder once again and tried to fall back asleep.

I had to try my best not to think about all the things I wanted to do with her.

I just wanted to be with Jimin, even if that meant giving her time to think about things, because I never moved on from our high school relationship, It was like being madly inlove, but, just without having labels on anything, which was literally our relationship right now.

As I watch her eyes unhurriedly open, slowly waking up, I gave her a soft kiss on her forehead.

I could see her start to wake up, and I wondered how many thoughts were going through her mind right at that moment.

I put on my best smile as I looked at her, trying to appear patient and understanding.

I won't try to make the first move today, Jimin... it's time for you to take the lead.

Jimin then started to pull the covers off the bed and stand up, as if she had somewhere to go.

"Jimin? Where are you going?"

Did she have somewhere important to be? Could she not lay in bed for just a little longer? 

"C-can't we lay in bed for some time longer?"

The moment I was trying so hard not to rush things with Jimin, I suddenly felt so anxious to see her stay in bed with me.

Jimin said nothing as she put on her shirt and began to get dressed.

I couldn't bear to see her leave the comfy bed we were in just moments before.I quickly stood up and tried to stop her from getting ready.

"Wait, Jimin. Where are you going?"

It felt like a child who didn't want his mom to leave him home and go to work again.I was being so clingy for no reason now, but I just needed some more time with Jimin.

"Jimin, wait. Please."

Suddenly, the way I was acting right now made me feel so pathetic.

I shouldn't be this clingy around her... it's too early for that. although we had been friends for over 5 or 6 years. I don't know, it seems too fast, so it's on me to slow down, I guess.

"I just... I want to spend more time with you, that's all."

I'm being ridiculous.