I don't even know why I try with this ni**a. Like .. just..act right! I do everything for this man. This morning he..man let me just go take a shower.
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Me: Hey baby I made you breakfast
Rashad: What you make?
Me: Some eggs with cheese , some bacon, some buttermilk biscuits, and some strawberries and bananas.
I say with a smile on my face as he just sits there looking mean as f*ck.
Rashad: you put cheese on the eggs?
Me: yes..
Rashad: didn't I already say I don't like cheese on my eggs?
Me: I'm sorry babe I'll make you some regular eggs .
Rashad: and not too much salt.
Me: okay.
I walk to the kitchen quickly, balling my fists. I know what you're thinking, why don't I just leave him and go on with my life. I cook him some regular fucking eggs and give it to him.
Rashad: This is good, finally.
He sarcastically blew me off as if
I'm just his mother fucking maid. I just nod my head as I spread my strawberry jelly on my biscuit.
Rashad: You made your doctors appointment?
Me: Yeah it on the third.
Rashad: You ain't think to tell me?
Rashad drops his fork and looks at me with a cold gaze. When he does that I just know he's gonna be in a worse mood than he already is. Today I'm feeling up for a fight, bring it.
Me: I didn't think you cared
I said sternly and crossing my arms.
Rashad: so you don't think I care about my child?
Yeah.. Forgot to mention that, I'm
A pregnant domestic violence victim.
Me: The way you treat me you don't
I mumbled those words that slipped from under my tongue and they cut that man like a samurai sword because baby.. Rashad stood up out his chair.
Rashad: What? How I treat you? Bitch I take care of yo black ass!
Me: I know.
Rashad: So what the fuck going through your brain?!
Me: I don't know
I just can't go out into the world by myself , and no funds. I was stupid enough to let a man take care of me.. he wasn't always like this. There's a lot of good days , but a lot of bad days too.
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🙏Thank you for reading my first chapter of my book, "Doesn't Matter". I hope everyone who is reading this enjoys this story further than chapter 1.
Please comment if I've made any grammar and punctuation mistakes , Thanks Again. - Manzie Loop 🩵
