Chi: Hey mama you woke?
Me: huh?
I woke up in my sweaty hospital gown , groggy and not knowing what happened last night.
Me: What? What happened?
Chi: hun.. you passed out at my house last night, it's only 5am ..
When she reminded me of my passing out, I remembered bits and pieces. I had stumbled on her doorstep bleeding, she only lived a few blocks from the house and I knew to
go to her if anything bad happened. I instantly grabbed my stomach wondering if my baby was ok..
Me: my baby ? My baby?
I started looking around at the hospital room
Chi: lil baby is okay sis, calm down..
I leaned back in the bed relived at the fact that I still had my baby, even though I was beat the fuck up. I started to remember every detail, and I had enough at this point. I tried to get out of bed in pain holding my bruised up face I couldn't believe what my life has become.
Chi: no you have to stay in bed , you all fucked up girl.
Me: no I gotta go home
Chi: Go home? Girl!
Me: I gotta go home..
I slowly began to fade and then, all I seen was darkness.
Before I continue I should explain who Chi is.
Chi, full name China, is my favorite cousin and the only family I had left close to me.
She has been by my side through thick and thin. China has never liked Rashad and anyone would understand why not. She never judged me for staying she only supported me, even more than my mama who passed away a couple years back. China is a beautiful smart independent woman , 31 married with 3 beautiful children. I was inspired by China to pursue a career in Cosmetology when I graduated high school, but of course my naïve ass wanted to live a fairytale life with Rashad.
I was finally free after this last incident.. Cause I finally got his ass and the next week or so I was supported , I was taken care of by the hospital , and still part of me wanted to forgive Rashad, but I knew I had to do what's best for me and the baby. I was officially a special victim in the eyes of the law and Rashad was under investigation. I proceeded to press charges against him and Im going to move on with my life. Everyone looks at me like a victim and it hurts so bad. I don't understand where I went wrong in this situation. I was blinded by stupid lies and stupid love, like I had a blindfold over my eyes, duct tape over my mouth and I was underwater. Somehow, I was still breathing.
