What should i do
should i just stop
stop everything
stop breathing
stop fighting
stop doing it
the thing that i hate the most
i mean what if it's not worth it
what if i just wasted those months
those years
Oh all those years of waiting
of hoping it would get better
better with your help
your kindness
your words
your everything
but it didn't
it just got worse
waiting for your never coming answers
trying to get moments alone with you
to tell you about my struggles
my problems
even my feelings
but you
you didn't listen
you didn't even try
giving you those signals you couldn't read
I should have just stopped
stopped fighting
stopped everything
I think i'll do it now
but just you know it was not your fault
I loved you to the very last moment
and with that i'll stop it
the thing I hate most
living
