midnight and most of the time later rants

4am

TW: Eating disorder, purging(throwing up), Self harm, slur

I havent slept all night, got my period, i skipped my period last month, so its good its back. Any way I almost had a panic attack at a lack because i was/am self consensus about my SH scares. Also i just love having and ed (no i dont it sucks ass) I cant eat in peace, like i have to look at calories then im like how many does that add up to.

thoughts that i have threw out the day and when im eating:

dont eat that

why did you eat so much??

do 40 sit ups,

why are you still fat?

throw it up

your not hungry your stomach is lieing to you

your thighs are so big

your stomach is sticking out

dont eat tomorrow you can only eat dinner you cant get out of that

you have to get to 90lbs before school starts

you have to look thin before school starts

that has so many calories dont eat that

this isnt and ed you just wanna look thinner

your fat and ugly no eating

just take a knife and carve off your stomach and thighs

weigh your self

cut, you dont deserve peace you ate, cut

wow that was so much food be disappointed in yourself ugly faggot

be subtle when looking at the calories you dont want everyone to know do you?

you dont have an ed your just an attention seaker

how many calories have you eaten today?

theres more but thats all im willing to right for now

bye<333