༻ 𝓈𝒽𝒾𝓃ℯ ༺

"why am i still here"

Selena's POV:

I get to the hotel and pay the driver I walk up and go to bill and Lena's room. I knock on the door and Gustav opens it I smile "hey gus" i say and give him a hug he invites me in

"Hey bitches you favorite dove is back" I say and do a 360 "Damnn who got you ready" bill said "my doves nor and Abs" I say and wink

"Did you have fun last night you left really early" gorge said and i looked down "um yea i dont wanna talk about it" just then tom came out of the bathroom hes eyes flung to me then my tits and back to me

"SELENA" he smiled and ran to me he lifted me up and spun me. I jump off him "as if jerk" I say and walk to Lena. I grab her hand and head out the door

We get to my room and I try to open it but it was locked and I didn't have a key. I walked back to Tom and put my hand out. He understood and put the key in my hand and I went back to Lena

And we got in I do a whistle and soon all the girls come in. I tell them everything even about Noah I tired my best not to cry because of my make up

We hear a knock and bill comes in "hey we leave in five" he says and we nod "yallhead to the car im gonna go to the restroom real quick" I say and they nod

(TW⚠️: sh
I walk into the bathroom and sit and to toilet. I sigh big and grab the razor I take out a blade and slid my skirt up a little bit and let the razor draw red lines against my skin

I do two more and wipe it the bleeding would not stop so I had to put bandages on them.

(End)

I walk out and head to the bus. I get in and light a joint just smoking it until gorge grabs the joint and trows it in water "gorge stop I'm not in the mood" I say

The boys look at me like I gave them the most shocking new "since when are you not in the mood" gustav says "since now" I say and storm to the back of the bus.

Toms POV:

I follow sel because I wanted to talk about last night. "Sel, can we talk" I ask and she looks at me and put her head down. She slowly raises her head and nods

I sit down and it was silence for a while "you gonna talk" she said and I look away from her and nod

"Look sel I'm sorry that I yelled at you I don't know why I just overreacted" I say trying not to admit that I wanted to touch her like he touched her.

"The truth" she said and I stared blankly "you want me" she said "and it's killing you that you just can't have me" she added

If she knew then why not just tell her "thats right i want to touch you like he did. i wanted to kiss you like he did. i want you to look at me and call me yours. selena i want you" i sighed

She smiled "make me want you" she said in a whisper only i could hear "sel what dose the mean" i look at her "prove that i can love you and you love me the same"

"prove you only have eyes for me" she said and i looked at her as she got up and got close to my face i didn't like this she had me blushing like crazy.

I closed the gap inbetween us locking our lips together i pulled her on my lap and held her waist
As we kissed our tongues danced.

I loved this so much she had given in. She tried to pull away but I didn't let her I loved this to much
She smirked into the kiss "stop smirking, if you smirk I can't kiss you' I say and lock my lips with her again.

We felt the bus stop and she pulls away "did that prove it" I said "hmm kinda" she said and hoped off me. I groaned and followed her.

Her phone dinged and I looked at it