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"Every day, got a lump in my throat, that's them pills swallowed hole"

Sel POV:

I got to my living room where everyone was. "We got so much damn clothes" I said "I know" g said

"So Lena" I sang "when will we get with mic" I smiled "I was thinking of going tomorrow" she looked at us for approval

"Yes!" I sprang up and call him "hey mic" I smirked "is it cool if we drop over tomorrow" I asked and heard his long response

"Okay sound good see ya husband" I said hanging up "we're on for tomorrow" I smiled.

"So if we go tomorrow when do you think the show will be" scar asked "maybe Ina mouth" g said

"Most likely victor is gonna pick the new album to play" I said "oh gosh" Gustav groaned "what" scar asked "so many guys"

"Right" bill agreed "there Victor and Michel" Tom added "who else"

"Victor is our producer, Michael is out manger" scar said "yea so shut up" g added

I giggled and got up "yall need to get your asses home, it's 24:28" in told them "nahh" bill said and jumped on out sofa next to Lena

"Let's watch pretty little liars" g smiled and the rest of the boys sat down "and order something to eat" gustav added

I got up going to the kitchen I felt Tom's eyes follow me. I opened my liquor cabinet and poured myself whiskey.

"Sel" Lena said getting up "yes" I said sipping it "what are you drinking" she said looking at my cup "tea" I lie

She smelled the cup "sel! I can't have you hungover tomorrow" she got mad "when have I ever gotten hung over, and when has drinking ever been a problem"

"Since the day we found you passed out and in a ditch" she said and I rolled my eyes

"Whatever" I said and took the drink going upstairs "y'all have fun" I yelled from the stairs
I got up in my room and closed the door locking it.

I sat on my bed and sipped the whiskey. I put the drink on my night stand and walked to my restroom.

I sat in my sink and opened a drawer and grabbed a small box of bandages. I opened the box and spilled the bandaids out along with a blade.

(TW⚠️: SH)

I rolled my shorts down and saw all my scars and unhealed cuts. I carved my razor into one of my fresh cuts opening it again. I felt a tear fall and opened

Two more cuts. I was about to open another one but someone knocked on my bedroom door. "Coming!" I yelled and grabbed some bandaids to stop the bleeding.

(End)

I put everything back in the box and stuffed it back into my drawer. I opened the door the gustav

(TW⚠️: ED)

"Yes" I asked "we bought pizza Lena told me to come up and get you" he said "hold on" I said and walked to my mirror looking at my stomach

Somehow I felt like it got bigger I sighed and walked back to gustav "I'm not hungry I think I'm gonna go to sleep" I smiled

"Uhm okay" he said and walked away. I closed the door and locked the door

I called my group chat  (party girls)

"Hey what's up" angel joined

*abs💖 joined the call

"Hey pretty lady" abby said

"Hey girls is Nora with you Abby" I asked

"Yea she's right here"