twenty three

grief.

Goodbye.
You were the most important person
In my life for the past six months.
I loved you truly and wholy.
I loved you so much
I didn't care how different we were
I loved you to the best of my abilities.
Everything I did
For the past six months
Was for you
And only you.

I lived and breathed to satisfy you.
To make you happy.
To see that sweet smile of yours.
You had me the first time we talked.
And everyday since.
I loved you desperately.
I love you.

I will never know how you feel.
Or maybe I do deep down.
But I never regretted anything.
I did make some mistakes
And you did too
But I loved you so much
I was willing to try and try again
To make it right.
To see you smile.
To make you happy.

You always put me first.
You never made me wait.
You never disappointed me.
I loved you.
I love you.

The only thing I regret
Is not kissing you goodbye
At the airport.
I only gave you a side hug
As I was too shy
Infront of my father.

I loved you.
I love you.

I hope you'll never forget me.
My first love.

We were never compatible
But somehow we still worked.
I envy the woman you will marry.
I envy the pillow you sleep with.
I envy the blanket that hugs you.
I envy the bed that holds you.

I will miss you
My body will miss you.
I love you.

My heart will forever call your name.