Love that I yearn for

What does it mean to be cared for?

At this point please notice there will most likely be the same warning
Main warning:mori mentions of suicidal thoughts abuse and more

Atsushi's pov:

The person that refers to himself as Chuuya carried me to a tall expensive looking building there was lots of men with guns but they did nothing except stand there while Chuuya and Dazai brung me through many security measures to get into a room with a man with black hair and a coat with a red scarf around him and in front of him a little girl with a red dress on

Tw mori remember to take this warning to heart if you feel uncomfortable with this please don't read this story:

"Pleasssse Elise dear~ just this once if you do I'll get you some ice cream" the man holds up a pink puffy dress with whit ruffles and white pooka dots on it "No Rinetorō your weird!" Chuuya puts me down to stand next to him "excuse me Elise dear it seems like we have some guest" he says with almost a mocking smile the girl which was called Elise crossed her arm turned her head and puffed out her checks

"Whatever Rinetorō" she said annoyed "Hello Dazai and Chuuya who have you've brought" I peeked my head towards the man who was looking at me they bowed to him then came closer to explain certain things I couldn't even care about I was to hungry to even care I sat down on the floor feeling like I might pass out due to hunger

Dazai pov:

"So your telling me he seems interesting to you...in what way exactly?" Mori-San asked his face full of interest but in a obviously not good way  "well I haven't talked to him much but I could tell there is something about his that would actually be helpful we never know this might be the link to success in the port mafia I do understand we have strong assets but it wouldn't hurt to have one more" I hated associating with Mori-San I truly see this kid has something that I'm kind of interested to unlock while I'm in this world...

I noticed Chuuya was not really caring of much going on he seemed more focused on the kid making sure he doesn't die before we get to decide "well it seems you and Chuuya seemed truly interested in this child you can be correct about this kid being some help...I trust in you Chuuya and Dazai to care for the child and figure out if he is as special as you say...."

I bow reluctantly I hated doing so but he was my only way to die and leave this cruel world I was stuck in...

Atsushi's pov:

I saw Chuuya and Dazai "well what to do now..." Dazai asked "well we can start getting him food then we can ask questions while we fix him up cause looking at him I know he needs it Chuuya picks me up in one arm and carries me to a kitchen or so it looks like if it is it looks expensive with marble countertops and shiny stoves everything was clean it was nothing like the orphanage there was a man wearing all black bowed to them

He sit me on a stools then clicked something causing it to move up "hey kid is there anything you'd like to eat...?"I looked down knowing that Headmaster hated when I ate without his permission but I could tell he was trying to care for me which was something I wanted and liked "if it is possible can I have tea on rice..." Dazai looked sharply at the man the man bowed then started to cook

"Let's make a deal if we feed you and take care of those scars of your you will tell us what happened to you" Chuuya said Dazai looked bored "hey can you make me some detergent he whined to another man washing dishes  "sorry sir we do not have detergent for you we can treat you to some water we are working on getting more drinks at this moment" "ughhhh fine~ I'll take water" Dazai complained

The man placed water in front of Dazai he drunk it then played with the cup I began smelling the fresh smell of tea and rice it smelled fresher than the ones I snuck in the orphanage eventually a large bowl was placed in front of me causing my eyes to light up but before I can even get to it I paused

In looked towards to two men "are you sure Headmaster said I shouldn't eat right now" "well is he here right now?" Chuuya asked I shook my head "exactly now eat" I looked at the bowl I felt guilty at first but I ended up eating it anyway the

It was the most  I ever ate in my life I've never been so full I gave a soft smile "thank you" "yeah what ever kid now let's get you bandaged up and changed into some more humane clothes" Chuuya said grabbing my hand and taking me to a large house that I guessed was his

He took off his shoes as Dazai did the same following him into a room he sat me on a bed with nothing on it the whole room he got out a red container then handed it to Dazai you know how to bandage people" he gave him a weird look "obviously..." "Hey what is that supposed to mean Chu-uya" they argued for a bit it made me uncomfortable it reminded me of the headmaster yelling at me

I began to pick at my skin until it bled until I felt someone grab my hand "hey snap out of it Damn it your bleeding!" I looked up and saw it was Chuuya Dazai sighed as he grabbed some clothes from the dresser "well firstly it would be better if he washed up first after all it could get infected if it's not already" Chuuya snatched to clothes "follow me" we walked into a bathroom he put the clothes down then handed me some shampoo and soap and rag "wash up and come out when your ready"

I looked at the clothes then back at him "ok sir..." " no need for formality's you can call me Chuuya" he said before walking out "ok Chuuya-San" I said before actually having the first actual bath I had in a long time it was nice after I was done I put on a black shirt with a big red hoodie and gray jeans it was big but I made it work

I went back into the room to Dazai holding Chuuya while Chuuya tried to get away "let go of me damn it it's not the time Dazai" "awww why we usually do this~" "no we don-" he paused to me standing there "ah um I'm sorry did I interrupt something!" I panicked "YES YO-" "NO!" Chuuya  punched Dazai in the nose "no you didn't come sit down and take off your sweater and you idiot come bandage him up so we can hurry to the questions"

Dazai started to bandage my arms "who did this?" Chuuya asked I looked down shamefully  "mostly all of them was by me the bruises and other ones are from..." I paused "headmaster..." "I see" Dazai said moving to my other arm Chuuya slapped his neck "stop being so insensitive you damn moron" "tch whatever...."

"Do you have anymore..." I pulled up my pant legs revealing many more as well as up my stomach as well as my foot "that's a lot"Chuuya said  his eyes widened Dazai sighed as he got to work "what is that bruise on your neck"Dazai asked I looked down "well you wanted to ask questions anyway"I sighed "yes most of these scars are done by me but I lived in a Orphanage where everyone there hated me they would beat me daily the bruise from my ankle and neck came from being chained up the rest is just from the punishments I would get from Headmaster just about anything you can think of they did to me..." my eyes went back to the same dull look

"How did you get out here?" "Well I was brought to a doctor I can't really remember his name but I think it was Shibusawa he was trying to kill me he put me in a electric chair..." when I said that I saw there face turn to a serious to a very shocked one "WHAT KIND OF SICKO PUTS A KID IN A FREAKING ELECTRIC CHAIR "Chuuya yelled "this sounds more like a failed execution then a attempted murder..." Dazai said with interest in his eyes "go ahead you can continue" he said looking at me his sharp eyes meeting mine sending shivers down my spine his eyes dark and dull like mine...

"Well I passed out and when I awoke I was surrounded by a bunch of brutally murdered kids and People...the tiger...it killed them all...and now it's coming for me..." "A tiger?" Dazai asked I nodded "it's the reason the orphanage hates me they believed if I was never put there none of this would happen they said I only bring bad luck everywhere I go" Dazai was quiet for a bit "I will take my leave he said getting up" "Wha-" "bye Chu chu" "ughh whatever!" "Feel free to go to sleep we can finish this tomorrow" Chuuya ruffled my hair before tossing me a cover and pillow "t-thank you Chuuya-San " "no problem kid your a good kid" he gave a slight smile before leaving me alone in the room

I put my head on the pillow and went under the cover it was comfortable this was the first time I ever slept anywhere except the floor this is the first time to be treated like this...

Is this what it mean to be cared for cause if it is this is what I've been yearning for this whole time....

Right....?