[BTS Suga] Loving Yoongi

Chap 14

April 21st

I went to look for Suyoung. I couldn't find her anywhere. I tried calling her but it was impossible because her number wasn't in use anymore.

April 26th

I snuck out to the restaurant where she used to work. Her manager told me Suyoung sent in her resignation slip a long time ago. After that, she didn't even contact her manager anymore. She told me to try looking for Suyoung's uncle in the music store down town.

April 29th

It's the day. Our comeback is finally here. I wonder if she knows.

May 12th

It's finally my day off. I made my way to Suyoung's uncle shop with the directions her manager gave me. I entered the shop and notice an old man sitting quietly on the chair behind the counter.

After introducing myself to him, he gave me a stun expression, as if he was expecting me. After a while he came back with a box in his hands.

"She left this for you. When Suyoung gave me this letter, my heart was shattered into pieces as I watch her face. I didn't imagine they would go as far to doing that to her. My poor child, she hasn't hurt a thing" He started shedding tears as he wipes them with the back of his hands. My mouth opened ajar as I try to control my thoughts.

I pleaded him to tell me everything, from who to how. But he was persistent and didn't want to spill a single information because of a promise he made to Suyoung. Before I left, I thanked him and he assured me we'll find Suyoung in no time. 

The same day at night, 8.39 PM

I sat in front of her door steps .The house was emptied by the landlord and entry was prohibited. Often, I wait; hoping she will open the door to greet me with her warmness. The wait was excruciating.

I sat on the floor with my legs cross and the box on top of my thighs. I open the lid open carefully and my eyes widened. There was a book....her music book. I flip it open and an envelope slipped in the middle. I picked it up and inspect the front and back of it. My name was written on the front in english. I rip the top open and pull out the A4 paper folded in half.

Dear Yoongi,

I never thought that I'll be writing to you this letter. There was a time when I thought we could always be with each other. Unfortunately, reality has chipped that dream away from me.

The past few days had been hard on me. I realized that with a single mistake, it can change your life forever. I also learn that I shouldn't put my trust on people too much because I'll get hurt in the end. The last thing I want to happen is for this to happen to you.

Don't worry, I'm okay. I'll live my life as beautifully as possible so that I can commit to the memory of our love. You have your career ahead of you and I know how music is your life. I can't afford to be a form of distraction for you by bringing you down with all my problems.

So, I'll leave to a place where both of us are given time to rethink our decisions; you get your music and I get my space. Even when the empty space without you hurts, I'll endure it.

You gave me many things in life that I never imagined I could receive. As a form of gratitude, my music sheets (even those that I didn't get to finish) are now yours. I'm more than happy that it now belongs to you, especially the piece that actually brought us together.

I hope we can see each other again. I don't know when will be the day but I'll promise you,

I will keep this love in my heart even if it dries out.

Love,

Suyoung.

12th November

  As I lied on my bed, I look up to the calendar ahead of me.  

It's been 6 months. I wonder, does she still keep her promise?