𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕥 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕝𝕠 𝕚𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤

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tw: scars (sh), hallucination, loss of loved ones

𝓘 𝓦𝓐𝓢 ℐ𝓤𝓢𝑇 getting dressed to go on a date with Matt, I was at his house making his way of seeing me so much more accessible. i get ready to put my white snood over my summertime flower dress, "baby you look beau-" matt cuts himself off as he sees the scars on my arms, by now, not even i was too sure what he was looking at. "thanks, matt" i waver, "nuh uh, theres no way your getting let off that easily" his tone stern, and ever so harsh, "what?" i say with a slight chuckle, nervous of course, i twiddled with the translucent buttons of my snood. "here" he said motioning me over, "now." he demanded, with this his whole demeanor changed from cute to what i would call mad. 

he pulled me into a long needed hug, simply all he said was "your arms?" in more so a questioning tone, "you...cut them" he said as if he was reified to tell me, "yeah, i did, but it was a long time ago" i reassure, "Y/N you wouldnt mind telling me how long ago?" he said worriedly, "long befor you and i started dating, so i hope you dont think absolutely any of this is your fault" i say rubbing his back, while my words got muffled into his shirt, he sort of pulled away picking up the arm he saw, "can i?" he asked holing my arm, at first i wasnt sure but i still said yes to it (plot twist he chainsaws ur arm in half).

 and with that the most lovely, healing and remorseful kiss was planted onto the scars that filled my arm, that was until, i felt a stream of tears run down them, i look up to see matts beautiful blue eyes flooded with glossy liquid, "baby? whats wrong?" i ask "Y/N you have to promise me something" he told me heartfully, i nod for him tto keep going "never do that, ive been so close to doing this and it would break my heart to see you doing it again" he said, i just hugged him and muffled, "i wont....i promise" i said promisingly, the reason matt had never seen my scars was because i always worse jumpers and long sleeved things around him to be cautious knowing this would happen.

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moments later

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matt and i went on the best date i could ask for, we even met up with some old friends, i was having a blast, we had some root bear along with aa burger of choice from McDonalds. "haha look at that emo loser" someone pointed to me pretending to slit his wrists, actionizing it and laughing, matt never heard but tears threatened to fall, "im gonna use the bathroom" i exclaim hurriedly speed walking to get there, once i got in there i found a stall with a charger port, i guess i can stay here and cry until matt messages me.

 i start crying, tons and tons of tears drown my eyes, making my vision blur, i plug my charger into the port and watch tiktok, i came across a video saying hold your phone up to your ear, i expected it to jump scare me or do some cupkakke moan. reluctantly i held the phone up to my ear and i heard after some music my boyfriend matt, sharing advice, i was sure it was him, i was right, i saved it to my phone and went on capcut and imported the video to my 'matt talking compilation' and i got my airpods out and played it as i tucked my knees to my chest and fell asleep.....

BANG!

CRASH!

BOOM!

"she's passed out again" an officer said flashing a bright light in my eyes, "mhm, third time this week" another says, "she doesn't smell of alcohol, she must be on drugs" they suggest, and with that they carried me into a stretcher and settled me down in an ambulance and the ambulance asked me a few questions, "whats your name? honey" she asked "Y/N?, Y/N Y/L/N" i tell her confidently, "and.....date of birth?" she asked reading from a clipboard, "00/00/00  (your one)" i tell her, "anyone we can call? to pick you up?"  she askes, "my boyfriend, matt, matt sturniolo" i tell her like it was the most obvious thing in the world, "oh honey let me search this" she said going to her transportable computer, searching his name into the tab, "sweetheart, he died six years ago" she says sympathetically, "NO! STOP" i say tears pricking my eyes

DING! 

PING!

DING!

i went into a state of shock the doctors wouldnt be suprised, it wasnt the first time, they hooked me up to a heart rate monitor and looked at my heart........a flat line.......a beat........flat...........beat......flat........flat.....flat, it stayed flat

goodbye matt sturniolo family and friends, its my time.

lindsay wont shutup!!!!!

ok so sorry, since this is my first imagine i didnt think it would be sad but it sort of just came to mind! id love for requests! i love imagines since i dont have to commit to a whole book? i guess im jus not for that 🤨. ANYWAYSSSS ilysm all of u.

IM TAKING SO MANY REQUESTS