𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕥 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕣𝕟𝕚𝕠𝕝𝕠 𝕚𝕞𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕟𝕖𝕤

ɢʀᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏʟᴅ

stop ik its my own story but this made me cry and tw: you stabbed yourself btw

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3/1/14

I was just twelve when i met matt sturniolo, he was the new found joy of my life, we teased each other especially about our middle names.

1/1/15

this was the exact date matt sturniolo asked me to be his girlfriend, of course it was going to be a dumb middle school love scheme, it was perfect because it would make it easier to count months since it was the first of months and days.

14/2/16

today matt bought me a valentines day card and present, i bought him one to dw, he also kissed me for the first time this out of the years we have been dating.

i wouldnt stop talking about matt to my diary up till our wedding date.........this is when i read out the vows↩

"matthew bernard sturniolo, this wasnt just a middle school fling like i thought it would be" i read, already tearing up, "no one has ever made me feel the way you make me feel, you have always came across as someone that i couldnt even describe in words or a picture, the way you walk, speak, and even breathe is so delicate and graceful to me" i say half crying. "i never thought this day would come, im so grateful it did" i read, "now, it has always been hard for me to promise things to anyone, but you, your different" i sob, "i promise to be your lover, companion and friend, your partner in parenthood, your ally in conflict, your student and teacher and lastly i promise above all of these to love and live in truth with you" i say wiping away my tears, i look up to see matt crying and his node was slightly red "through sickness and health, matt sturniolo i will love you forever" i say lastly, holding his hand in mine, i see nick, chris his parents and justin in the crowd crying, my parents crying along with my siblings and my bridesmaids looking emotional aswell.

"Y/N, Y/M/N, Y/L/N, on this day, i give you my heart and my promise is that i will walk with you hand in hand wherever our journey leads us." he read out looking at me crying, i cry at the sighht, happy tears of course, "you have been my best friend, mentor, playmate and confidant and my greatest challenge. but most importantly you are the love of my life and you make me happier than i ever thought possible. and you 100% have made me a better person, i remember when i told you i didnt beleive in soulmates, you looked beyond upset but i got to truely understand you and develop the feelings i have for you. i promise to hold your hand everynight in hopes we never loose our spark" he told crying, everyone cheered and threw a boquet up and ran up hugging us

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he kept that promise every night he got a hold of my hand, kissed it and fell asleep, again, again and again

time flew past as if i didnt even know what it was, sicknesses started to pop up. eventually we couldnt pay the bills and had to live in an aged care home...

this was the last night for both of us, i wanted to die next to him so its exactly what i did

aged 89, we were both forced to lay on a hospital bed provided by paramedics, matt grabs my hand, and interlocked our fingers and whispered something and a teardrop fell from his eye as i saw the monitors line go flat, a paramedic tool was left there, i found a visible vail and stabbed it with my fingers interlaced with matts still.

lindsay wont shutup!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CRIED.

STOP.

IT WAS SAD.