Silence

𝒮𝒾𝓍

♡
Alexsondra

"Come on alex, do it again"

"Again"

"Again"

Blaze stood a few feet in front of me, hands raised with training hand gloves on both of them. I've been a little off the past few days so he dragged me out here and here we've been for the past 3 hours. We were currently in Lucca's gym, which might i add is massive as fuck.

It's officially almost been 3 weeks since I've gotten to Lucca's, and a little over a week since I've killed that man in his basement. My head has been fucking with me since then, and my emotions have been all over the place. Killing him wasn't the issue, hell that's literally my job description.

It was the fact that we were getting closer to the Russians. As much as i craved revenge, the fact that i would see him again, look into those blue soulless eyes again, haunted me.

Vladimir Petrov, the man who ripped me from my reality and made my life complete hell for almost a decade. The one who took my childhood away from me, stripped me of every emotion possible and broke me down to my core.

He isn't the only one i want to take my revenge out on, there is a list. A list that i will personally run down and make sure every single one of them has what's coming to them. I plan on doing exactly what they did to me. Stripping them of everything they know, all their morals and emotions, putting them in a complete state of numb. Just to bring hope back into their lives and force it down their throats.

Then and only then will i kill them.

"Jesus Alex are you okay??"

Zoning back into reality, i noticed Blaze on the ground with pure worry written all over his face.

I blacked out, again. Great.

Holding my hand out, i helped him back onto his feet before turning around and making my way towards my water bottle. Uncapping it, I gulped down the remains of it before tossing it into a nearby trash can. Slumping down on a nearby wall, i dragged my knees up to my chest and tossed my face into my hands.

I felt Blaze's presence next to me before i heard him speak.

"Lex talk to me"

'Lex' a nickname he and only he calls me. This is the side of him that many people don't see. He's a very very closed off person and has been since he's been with Gabriel. It wasnt until i came along that he actually started to open up.

There's one part of me that thinks he only opened up because he was a lonely kid and had no one else to talk to, but the other part of me knows exactly why he opened up. He did because i opened up to him, and he soon realized just how much we both had in common. Our childhood traumas, the things that haunt us day in and day out, they affected us both in a similar way.

It became easy for him to get close to me because i understood, and not just because i gave him that sorry excuse of  'im sorry I understand'. No i quite literally understand everything he went through, because i went through the same.

A deep sigh left my lips before i lifted my head up.

"This whole thing is just fucking with me, the closer we get the more it does."  He nods in understanding, giving me more time to speak before i shut down again.