Blistering Love

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Palabas na kaming dalawa sa restaurant and we're now headed to our cars. I saw mine thats why I face Hades to say my goodbyes politely.

"Eto na sasakyan ko Mr. Ventriuos--"

"Hades, call me Hades." Putol niya sa sasabihin ko.

"Well then Sir Hades. I'll go ahead, thanks for today." kumunot ang noo niya and I dont know why.

"Yeah right." I went to my car as he stand next to me watching me getting on the car. He lean on the car near me.

Nung binuksan ko na ang makina ay pumasok na din siya sa sasakyan niya. It was his car, the one he's leaning on.

Palabas ako ng parking lot at kasunod ko lang siya sa likod ko 5 mins na ako nasa biyahe ay nasa likod parin siya.

Nagtaka na talaga ako nung malapit na ako sa condo ni Calley at nasa likod ko parin siya.Nung binagalan ko ay binagalan niya din ang takbo.

I just sighed and told myself not to assume. Maybe his house is same way as mine. Nung papasok na ako sa parking lot ay hindi ko na nakita sa likod ang sasakyan niya.

See that's what i'm saying don't assume Triana.

Binuksan ko ang pintuan ng unit ni Calley.
To only see na wala siya doon. Umakyat na ako sa kwarto. Planning to take a bath pero nauwi sa paglublub sa bath tub.

Habang naka lublub sa bathtub ay inaalala ko ang lahat ng nangyare.

I'm still to shock to find out that Hades is that sponsor. Medyo nagtataka din dahil ang layo ng Davao sa Manila.

I never want to expect but my mind says otherwise. Was it because he knew I was there. Was it because of me? This questions keep circulating in my mind even when I was driving a while ago.

He change so much. He is more masculine.
Even his hair is long it's even more wavy. It look so soft and fluffy. His skin is now tan, like a seed of chestnut. He glow when reflect by the light. But his aura is contrary to what he is back then. His aura now scream darkness and ruthless.

I didn't even ask how he've been. I have this force stoping me to ask him that. He belittled me just a few hours ago those words he spit in front of me was like a million of knife stab in my body one go and without anesthesia. The worst part is he knew that was my weakness.

He stab me on my weakest point, and I can't even fight nor I have the will to defend myself on him.

I was crying in the bathtub right now, remembering how he mercilessly drop a statement so satirically. About how i'm into children now and the part where he said I knew how to handle a business now. He knew everything and he used it against me.

Inaamin ko na nagdadamdaman ako sa lahat ng sinabi niya. I have question myself do I deserve it? Part of me says yes, and no.

It's been so long. I've learn from may mistake. I have forgiven myself. I was healed already. But why do I feel shit the way I did back then?

I blame myself for what happen to me, to us. I isolated myself from other people. I pushed them away not until I meet Vallery and Kelsie.

Sinabi niya pang we'll see each other again. Iniisip ko palang na mag-kikita ulit kami ay parang pagod na ako.

Aaminin ko nung umpisa ay nananabik pa ako. It's the longing for him that I felt. I haven't seen him for what 3 years already. Only for him to make me feel so insulted.

Sa totoo lang parang gusto nalang ka-meeting or i-email ang sekretarya niya para sa mga details.But I already said yes to him. I can't back down right now.