You don't know what's wrong with yourself. You used to be so happy and so pure hearted. But somehow that all changed and you became so quite, unhappy, tired all the time and never want to socialize with anyone. You stay in bed all day when you can and you sleep to block out reality. You also use music as a way to escape everything but it doesn't really work but it helps a little bit. You envy people with genuine happy lives. You have a family that doesn't really family and when they do you feel like the black sheep of the family. You wish you were someone else and you wish you were happy. You also have a short attention span to thing. You zone out a lot when you're out. You used to want to go out all the time but now all you want to do is stay home locked up in your room, sleeping, watching movies, or listening to music. You lost all hopes of becoming better and you are starting to hate yourself. You overthink everything and you get anxious very quickly. You put on a smile for people and make everyone laugh and smile and have a great day, while deep down inside you're slowly giving up on life. You're on the verge of breaking. You don't know what to do and you don't know how to express your feeling this is you huh? I get it and it's okay to feel all this just hanging in there a little longer.
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PoetryFake friends are like shadows always near you at your brightest moments but nowhere to be seen at your darkest hour. You should never apologize for saying what you feel. That's like saying sorry for being real. Always keep that in mind.