Pain life

Real

Wanna know why she's afraid of anyone new leaving her? Here's way. Because she's always there for everyone else. But when she needs other people to be there for her, they're not. She was there for that one person when they went through problems, and she was there to help them get through it. But you weren't there for her. That's why. She sat there in bed trying so hard to cry, but no tears ever come out. She needs to release there emotions somehow, but she just can't cry. there's only one option, she thinks to herself. she sits starting at the lines carved into her thighs and decides it's time to make new ones. if only she could cry. I will not hide my scars away the way you think i should. Each scar will always tell the story of a day i could. A day i thought i couldn't bear to take another breath. When life felt so unbearable that i had nothing left. But i dug deep. And i'll be honest with you. You fucking ruined me. Looking back to before you, i wasn't happy, but i was living. Now i'm not happy, but i don't feel like living. the self hatred is from you. The bags under my eyes is from staying up crying over you when you aren't shedding a tear over me. The want to not be on earth, that's from you. The pain is so heavy in my chest, that's your doing. The wondering why i'm not good enough. That's from you too. That's so funny. I thought you made my life better. But in all reality you were just trying yo kill a dead person. and you did so congratulations.