Broken (Thalico)

Untitled Part 22

(he guys, sorry this is late and short and horrid but mom just got out of the hospital, so I haven't got much time to write. I'm sorry if its shitty and really bad, I'm sorry its been a bad day....))

Pretty Boy Or Whore Girl

Nico lay sprawled out across his bed, his head absolutely buzzing with things he'd rather not think about, but they needed to be thought over, and he had already put it off far long enough.

  Why where these thoughts here? Why was he thinking like that? What was going on in his head? This was wrong and he knew it. Even if it wasn't, they both had way to much going on with there lives and where in no state for something like that. He knew they needed to stop, to get away, but he didn't know how to stop them.

  "What's on your mind?" Bianca's voice rang out, snapping Nico from his thoughts that where slowly consuming him, eating him alive and driving him to insanity because he just couldn't control them.

  "I-" he sighed, contemplating how the hell to go about disusing this with his sister for gods sake. "I like a girl... But... But I can't! Not her! Its... Its wrong and.. And we can't! Neither of us are, are in a good place in our lives so- so I should just forget it but, but I can't." He let out, frustrated with himself for even thinking about it, frustrated that his words where true, and frustrated that he couldn't fix it.

  Bianca let out a laugh, "Calm down Nico! Liking a girl isn't a big deal, you haven't gotten this worked up over a crush since you came home from your first day of seventh grade almost crying because you thought that one guy in your science was hot and you didn't know you where bisexual yet! That was a very hard conversation to have with you," she giggled, "But seriously, it isn't a big deal, what's her name?!" Bianca flopped back onto the bed beside her brother who was on the verge of a mental break down, not understanding why he was so worked up over this.

  "But none of my crushes have been LEGALLY RELATED TO ME, Bianca! I like Thalia!" He shouted, hoping that saying it out loud would make him realize how fucking idiotic and stupid it was and fix the problem. But unfortunately, he wasn't that lucky, and it only resulted in a very shocked looking expression ok on her that she quickly replaced with a huge grin.

  "Nico your so stupid! You said it yourself, legally related, not by blood. She's your FOSTER sister, technically, your still Nico di Angelo, not Nico Grace. So if you like Thalia, its no big deal." Bianca reasoned, trying to make her brother feel better about his situation, and hopefully, making him see it from a different point of view would do just that.

  "Yes but legally she's my fucking sister! And even if she wasn't, I'm fucking mental and she's a drug addict! We can't get into a relationship it would be dysfunctional and we need to focus on getting ourselves better before we worry about anything else!" He exclaimed, trying to reason with his sister who obviously was not thinking straight.

  Bianca bit her lip, she wanted her bother to be happy, to do what he wanted to, she really did. But she was still his older sister and maybe he was right, maybe he should be focusing on bettering himself before worrying about crushing on his foster sister and maybe she shouldn't be supporting this idea in the first place. "I- Nico, maybe your right." She sighed, "Maybe you should focus on yourself before you even worry about this. Just, just forget about her." She stuttered, and then she was gone.

  Nico groaned, she wasn't supposed to agree! She was supposed to tell him he was being stupid and that he should follow his heart. He knew that she was his sister and if he wanted her to support the idea than maybe he shouldn't have brought up his own mental health, but he was opposed to it himself and was only bringing up a good argument. Maybe, just maybe he was scared, because he had enough shit going on and just forgetting about it all together would be a hell of alot easier than actually facing his problems. And maybe he was a bit terrified of rejection, and Thalia was alot to handle, and he meant that in the nicest was possible, but maybe he was scared of what would happen if he didn't just let it go, maybe he kind of wanted to just forget about everything because it was easier, because he didn't like risks, because he wanted everything to be guarantee and this was definitely not a for sure situation, and maybe Nico just wanted to forget.