Endearing.

The Silhouette.

The sun was bright really bright in my eyes. My sight was blurry but I saw a silhouette. A Man's silhouette he was tall, it wasnt lincoln,I could feel him and he wasn't in the room with me. "Dr.?" I asked. He laughed, I knew his laugh it was right there in my memory but this head of mine wouldn't let me think clear. "I once thought of going into medical school,but it would be a waste of time." he said, his voice I knew him I did, He was there in a lifetime with me, and I just couldn't think clear, and remember who he was. "Im sorry, I feel like I know you but I can't think clear and can't remember you." I said , with a groggy voice. The silhouette went to sit down next to the window. "Violet I know what happened and I'm sorry for your loss but please, be careful. I can't feel you any more but, exiles are talking about how you have weakened . They are about to attack, any one close too you, you have too protect them. It is not just one but many, I'm lost in their memories but your still alive, and they are ready to attack." He said. No suprise I knew this but not the details, Lincoln wouldn't say nothing about the subject, it would affect me, but I didn't care. I was begining to see clearer. I was starting to see him better. It wasnt a Silhouette any more I was starting to see his face, I rubbed my eyes but he got up and gave me his back. "Be carefull Violet, please take care of yourself." He said. "Thank you for caring" I said. My eyes finally adjusted, I looked at his hair, and smiled recognizing that hair, I once and still admired .
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After the unexpected visitor I had a time to regain my powers, but it was urging for something it urging to take care of something human and small, I reached out to lincoln. He sent me comfort and I gadly received it. I knew how he felt and he knew how I felt, I want a solution to this feeling of mine. I heard a knock "Vi it's me Steph,are you awake?"
"Mmmhhm come in." I answered. She opened the door and came in, I straighten my self, she had a box in her hands "I brought you some doughnuts. Lincoln had some car trouble he'll be here in a bet." Steph said.
"It would have had the name Daniel." I said wanting to get stuff out of my system "If it would have been a her it would have be named Erica." I added
"Beautiful names Vi. Vi how are you feeling?" She said
"I feel like some piece of my heart was missing, but I can't do anything, hey was my dad and mom here?"I asked not wanting to share my feelings. "Yes they were here , but we left too rest and leave you to rest , Lincoln didn't want to leave but your dad told him to get some rest. In the morning the doctor said that you were feeling better , in there was no more panic attacks that you can leave later in the evening." Steph said. I was feeling Lincoln getting closer and closer and out of nowhere he came in hugging me... in the corner of my eye I saw Steph leaving and giving us space. " oh my god, violet I thought for a second I was going to go insane ,Vi I know what you are feeling and I think there is a solution to that feeling.... we can consider adoption." Lincoln said holding my hands and looking through my eyes with such love and compassion. A look I always get when he supports me and holds me through my toughest times. "but... I don't know, maybe we weren't made to be parents ... but we can give it a try" I said weary.
"It well work out, just watch." He assured me
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I was home, I was in my studio, since coming back I did a studio in the room that was full of stuff. I got my paints and brushes and began painting, I don't know what it was at first. But then noticed it was how I was feeling... I got up and got out
"Hey Vi, are you ready to go?" Lincoln said I nodded, he grabbed the keys and we got out, into the car. We traveled outside the city, we then found the house. "What well happen if we find something?" I asked "We well find something, but it's all on who makes you happy." He said , we got of the car and went inside their was a lot of kids. "You both must be Mr. and Mrs. Wood?" A nun said
"Yes we are call me Violet." I said "and call me Lincoln" he said. "Well Violet snd Lincoln before we approach the kids, I have to talk to you."She said We followed her to her office. She sat down and made a hand movement inviting us to set down and so we did "Some of this kids have been here for.almost there life time,please be careful for who you keep close too and show care for." She said "The process of adoption is fast, you well be able to take her or him today as foster parents while the adoption files and paperwork is processing. Please note that you won't be able travel international and if you go to another state we need to be informed." She added , she got up and we also did "Here come with me" she said and we followed... We got where their were so many innocent souls "Do you have babies?" I asked "We have one, he has been here for 2 months and was brought here at 2 months." The nun said. She was taking us where he was located my heart jumped in excitement "Does it have a name?" I asked "We perfer not to name them but we have like nicknames, we call him little angel" She said. I nodded , we got there and he was in a crib , so small and innocent, he was awake "Can I carry him?" I asked , she nodded with a smile , I got my hands on this beautiful baby... Lincoln was feeling worried but as soon as I felt the urging feeling going away , I knew this little one would be my happiness, and Lincoln felt it too and send me strength, I looked at him and said "This is the one." I gave him the baby and felt joy in him. I saw in the corner in my eye a little girl about two or three years old, I turned to see her better and got closer "Plea don take my little brothe away fom me" She said with the small Vocabulary of hers, and suddenly felt sad for her, I couldn't do that too her and I wouldn't . I looked at Lincoln and just shrugged "Its your decision." He said and so I did it I was going to take both of them.
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Hi, I just want to.clear something up , I dont know how an adoption works or how the process is but I hole you know it , and please if any mistakes please feel free to correct me and hope you enjoyed, I'll be updating soon :) thank you .