broken glass

Cold walls for cold hearts

Slouching against the cool hard wall I inhale the smoke and let it take over my body. Automatically my mind clears and becomes less crowded. I feel the weight been lifted off my shoulders even though I know it's just a delusion. All around me I hear giggles and laughter. How I wish life was still like that and simple with no complications. I smile at the thought of when I was happy when I wasn't so god damned fucked up. I softly giggle to my self remembering all the times Harry and I got into trouble. My silent laughter comes to a sudden halt as I think of him . Harry, Wild hair ,Green eyes,soft laugh,perfection, he's Lille me ed a fucked up soul. He is every thing in the world to to me. He's the only person who could make me laugh. I need to get a grip. I need to stop thinking of green eyed boys and start thinking about...... I don't even know what to think about. I'm so fucked up.

I knew he was watching me before I even turned my head. I was expecting him to nag at me about the smoke between my fingers. He surprised me by taking it off me , and instead of throwing it away he put it to his lips and inhaled .I tilted my head in surprise,curiosity written all over my face. To be honest I was amazed . not only did he just smoke he also hasn't talked at all since he saw -her that must be a record. As if hearing me think he starts by answering my exact thoughts. "I needed that- I at least don't smoke often one hit in 4 months is pretty good if you ask me.and yea it was a record for three reasons one, I normally won't fuck up, two I always can guess what your thinking and I was standing over there watching you trying to figure out what was going on In your head it was like there was a block there or something 'cause for 5 minutes looking at you my mind was blank,and three it only took me 1 and a half minutes to get here.I'm so trucking awesome . I am aren't i"? He smiled tauntingly dragging out the 'i'. I shrugged my shoulders .don't wanna bruised his ass cock of an ego. I stood up from against the wall without warning warm lips are on mine and there's literally a fire burning within me. I want to push him off -but I don't ,I want to hate him -but I can't . When I finally the strength to pull away is when it happens

Ok so I know this is an ASHTON fanfic do not fear. It is and although it's depressing now that's just because I need to go over the one of the major conflicts that shape this story. please have patience with me. it will get better. I know it's short please forgive me. what do you think will happen???? Vote and comment please????