More Than Love

The Meeting

Engfa POV:

You ever met someone that you thought was absolutely gorgeous? They seemed to spark something inside of you but you couldn't quite understand it?

That was my initial feelings when I saw Charlotte for the first time. The spark wasn't something intense or what I would call love at first sight but it was enough to make me do a double take.

I thought she was beautiful.

Which isn't a surprise considering the field of work we are in. I see beautiful women all the time. But as I watched her compete in both provinces her smile captured my attention. It made her even more beautiful. When we started to talk over live I couldn't help but flirt with her.

I could tell my words were effecting her when she would blush and become bashful when I teased her. She also was a flirt as well. Which shocked me initially but it made me even more curious about her.

We did a few solo lives together, just us two and I must admit, I like her personality as well. I remember one live we did together she was super adorable she was in her glasses and retainers. I was shocked she was willing to go live in front of hundreds of viewers and even me wearing them. This made me feel warm inside when talking to her because most women will focus on wearing makeup and making sure they presented themselves beautifully when going live, especially as a beauty queen. But the fact that she was willing to do this, just made me feel as if she had substance and wasn't only focused on looks and beauty.

I told my sister and close friends about Charlotte. I told them that I grew to like her and asked if it would be a good idea for me to try and court her. They were a bit skeptical after I told them she doesn't have any history with dating women and I must admit that worried me as well. Along with her age. She's only 23 and I'm 27 so I feel as if she has a lot of growing to do in this industry and in life. But when I talked with her I couldn't help but smile when she smiled or flirt with her when I got the opportunity. She's the epitome of beauty in my eyes, even in her adorable state of glasses and retainers when trying to go to sleep. It warmed my heart when she said she just wanted to talk with me before bed and was hoping she can get encouragement from me as she had some work to do tomorrow. It ignited this yearning feeling insides of me of wanting a partner. It almost felt domesticated in a sense. Although we didn't know each other in real life. Something about how she carries herself I feel as if she's a cute person who has more than just beauty.

I tried to get her line ID from her. I admit I was a bit cocky. I didn't expect her to say no. I think I oversold myself a little because of the amount of women I knew were into me, so I had a slightly inflated ego that I should've shoved down. This seems to have been my downfall.

I did get her to agree to give it to me in one of our lives. I didn't eat because she wanted to go live and when I mentioned that she seemed worried. I was at the restaurant but hadn't touched anything because I was focused on talking to her. She told me that if I ate she would give me her line ID. So I agreed because I really wanted it and so I ended the live right after.

She never gave it to me.

It confused me. Maybe I was asking too much or coming on too strong? She did say she never dated a woman maybe she is unsure. 

Hmm..

All these thoughts make me think that I should back off a little bit on trying to get her line ID directly. Maybe I can pull one of the oldest tricks in the books to get it. Where she doesn't feel pressured and I don't keep asking.

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I'm yanked out of my thoughts when I feel my sister slap me on the side of my head.

I unconsciously reach my hand up and go to slap her back but she saw it coming and dodges it. My hand falls back down to my side coming back empty handed.