More Than Love

Drama & Kneeling

"No chance"

"Charlotte sunk the Englot ship"

"She led Engfa on"

"This is why I didn't ship them. I can tell Engfa was going to be heartbroken by her."

"Leave Charlotte alone you can't be mad at her because of your own expectations."

"She said RIGHT NOW it's no chance that still leaves the future"

"I still have hope! I think Charlotte just doesn't realize her feelings yet it can be overwhelming! You gotta realize this would be her first woman love"

"The way she looks at Engfa I think she needs time to realize"

"All of you are dumb she is just straight. Let it go."

"I'm heartbroken hearing the no chance."

"Some of you are dumb. You take two words of an entire live and blow it up. She obviously just said the same things we've heard Engfa say. Engfa even said right now it isn't possible but maybe they can walk out holding hands after they give up the crowns. Just have patience! I believe in them!"

"Chompu is way more direct about her feelings that's who we really should be shipping with her."
Reply- "Chompu and Engfa don't have the same chemistry, plus Engfa has made it known she's into Charlotte. She flirts with Chompu but she flirts with everyone. Only with Charlotte does she treats her with extra care and respect. Plus she's way more shy with Charlotte than she is with anyone else. Usually everyone else is shy by Engfa. When she got drunk at the MadamFinn live she was all over Charlotte! That's where her feelings are at no matter who you want it to be it's so obvious it's always been Charlotte"

"I still have hope! She needs time."

"There's no hope. Get over it. She's not into women and Engfa needs to be with a woman who knows what she wants, like me. If she doesn't want her I do Engfa is perfect. Charlotte isn't even talented enough to be by her side anyways."

"Charlotte is a manipulative bitc-"

I swiped off the app and sighed. I felt my anxiety build up reading all of the comments. I never been good with conflict as it causes me a little panic because of my past.

I felt tears sting in my eyes as I look at the screen of my phone that is dimming. What should I have said? Maybe the phrasing was bad but haven't they been hearing? Even P'Fa said not right now. I was only being honest. I do feel like right now there isn't a chance for me and Engfa to be anything more. I never said it won't ever happen because I never speak indefinitely because things can always change. But with eveything Engfa has said in the interviews it's clear where she stands and I agree. It would be too messy for anyone in the top 10 to get involved with one another. When working together we want to live comfortably and be phi/nongs. I also find myself unsure of my feelings very often. It wouldn't be fair to Engfa if I was to give false hope when I myself don't know where my feelings are coming from. I've never been with a woman. I don't know if what I feel is enough to pursue it in a romantic way. It could easily be friendly admiration that has been pushed to be more by everyone around.

Why don't people understand that? I've got gay friends and even without the pressure of having fans they still found it hard to come to terms with their sexuality on their journey.

*knock knock*

I wiped my tears and went to open the door. With hurt feelings and a confused mind I went to open the door open to my apartment.