Our Invisible String

Chapter 1

                    ~~moving day~~

I've always dreamt of this day, the day I finally get my own place. I did love living with my dad, but not so much as my mum, I could always go to him for help. He supported me no matter what I did, I'm putting my old self in the past and become the woman I always said I would be.

Not everything is easy, I just have to adjust to the feeling of living alone. I know that I can do this by myself plus I can meet new people from my building. The thought of being able to decorate my own place brings me so much joy. I don't think anyone knows how many pictures I've saved from Pinterest to prepare for this.

I wake up in my parents house for the last time from the best dream. I can still remember it, it was 6 years from now I was settled in my apartment everything looked perfect and I was so happy. I just hope that my dreams comes true. Suddenly, I hear my mum knocking on my bedroom door before she enters the bedroom. It appears that she is talking to me but I was still reminiscing about my dream. But just as I snap back into reality I hear her say "Brianna are you even listening? Do I have to repeat myself again? You literally never listen to me."

I hear her let out a small but obvious sigh. Like the little attention seeker she is, she tries to make me feel bad. Jokes on her. I can't believe she is doing this right now.

I feel as if I was hit by a meteor, I feel so deflated. All I wanted was a nice and easy day with a fresh mind when I start a new life. But no, I had my mum ranting to me about how I never listen to her. Couldn't she have cut me some slack? I've just woken up, does she think I would be fully functioning after I've woken up? Sorry to burst her bubble but not everyone is like her. I'm really not in the mood for her bitchy attitude right now.

I don't have to worry about pissing her off too much. Why would I have to worry about that? I am moving out today anyways, why would I bother, I don't live with her anymore.

"Are you finished now? Or do I have to listen to you whining at me again about how I 'don't listen to you' again?" I mocked her with a smug tone.

The look on her face made me want to laugh. She was shocked, I don't blame her. All my life she's had a problem with me, but the little defenceless girl who always got pushed around isn't here right now. Silence fills the room for a short minute. I start laughing at the situation, it's hilarious the amount of times she's said this to me.

I could see the anger build up in her red face. "DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU CAN TALK TO ME LIKE THAT!! I'm your fucking mum, do you think I deserve all of this sarcasm?," she roared.

By this time I'd already made my bed I was just ignoring her showing that she doesn't faze me.

She scoffs then continues "Wow now you're ignoring me, it's not like I don't expect that from you already. Time and time again you've not listened to me I'm just fed up with it, I've had enough of you! Do i have to drill it into your head to listen to me and respect me!? You're so pathetic and useless I'm so glad that you're moving out today. "

"Look, do you really think I want to be dealing with you right now? I'm just going to clear something up. All of these years you have said this to me I didn't say anything back, but now I am going to stand up for myself for once before I can finally get out of this place. One, I do listen to you I just couldn't care less about what you say to me. Two, YOU are the one who doesn't listen because every time I try to talk to you, you dismiss me like it's nothing. Three, you don't know how long I've waited for the day I move out but I just feel bad for dad who has to live with you. You think you're high and all mighty but you're not you're just a self-absorbed whiney bitch." I declared.

Suddenly, my dad burst through the door steaming. I could tell by his scarlet face and his knitted brows.
"Are you two seriously fighting already? You've just woken me up from your bickering. Lillian will you cut Bri some slack for once in your life. I'm sick of it," he announced. "why don't you just go downstairs and wait for me while I speak to your mother and then we'll leave." he suggested to me.

She was speachless, it was like a cat bit her tongue. I decided to do as my dad said and went downstairs. She didn't even bother saying anything else after that. A sigh of relief comes out of me and my shoulders feel lighter than ever.

Luckily me and my dad had boxed up my stuff and put it in the van yesterday, along with my mattress and bedframe. This had made everything so much easier to just not have to pack anything today. To just have a nice and easy day when I move in sounds like bliss. My day may have started off unplanned but I'm going to put it all behind me.

Eventually my dad did end up coming down but he didn't say a word. I think we both needed to calm down from what had happened. That's what we usually did if anything happened like this. Me and my mum had fights multiple times a week. So this is practically a routine for all of us. We never spoke about it we just knew what to do to prevent it from carrying on. It always worked, I'm thankful for that because otherwise I swear I'd kill her.

As I drive to my new apartment, I start thinking about my whole life. I start to sympathise for my younger self, I know that I wasn't perfect but all I needed was help. I just couldn't find a way to speak out about it, so I eventually find unhealthy coping mechanisms to fulfill the part of me that's missing.

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