𝙵𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙱𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝙸 𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚈𝚘𝚞

4

"You didn't know how to act around me! But, I fell in love with you. Because I knew you were going to be my husband. But before that, I knew you were shy."

My husband, Kylo, was still rubbing the shampoo into my hair, listening in on my story. Now and then giving me some new input on how we met.

Kylo laughs, remembering the first time he tried to talk to me.

"I was very shy. I was nervous around you, in your presence. I wanted to talk to you but I didn't know what to say. So I ended up just being stern and scary, like a fool."

I chuckled and he smiled lightly. "But I couldn't help myself,"

I looked back at him, grinning.

Kylo kept talking. "I was still drawn to you, and I did fall in love with you. I wanted to be your protector, to give you what you wanted and deserved."

I chuckled again. "But I will never forget when you kept coming to my home. You seem to always be angry with me. But I knew!" I teased him.

"I knew you were so shy. I was patient with you. I remember when you asked me to come with you though. Snoke didn't like when you came to my planet over and over for no reason. So you took a chance and asked me to leave with you."

"I remember that too," He said, smiling at the memory. "I was still so nervous. I didn't know for sure what you would say. But I knew that I had to ask you to come with me, or you would never know how I felt. But I was so relieved to hear you say yes."

It was quite for a moment. Just our naked bodies together, being in a loving environment.

We were still in the shower, the water droplets hitting my face as he still had his fingers in my hair.

"Now that I look back at it, I can't believe you knew I was interested in you even when I seemed to show my anger."

He laughs. "What gave it away? Was it my nervous smile, or maybe the way I would stare at you?"

I rolled my eyes.

But I thought for a second.

"Well, I knew ninety-nine percent of the time, you had your mask on," I started.

"So, the first time you came back to my planet and to my door with no mask on, I had a feeling I was special."

I turned around in his arms, still smiling. My husbands face was a little red from the humidity and at the memory of our first interaction.

"It was a brave thing for me to do, and I was so nervous. But then I realized it would be better to just be vulnerable with you. And I still get nervous, but now it's a good kind of nervous."

I still felt bad about slamming the door in his face, even after all these years together.

He smiled and kissed me again, his touch gentle once again, and as our lips meet, I can feel his heart beating through his chest.

FLASH BACK

I hated fucking alarms.

I woke up like a mother would if her young child woke her up, telling her they puked in their bed.

But, a big bad man would be at my doorstep in three hours. So waking up was necessary.

Showering first, I treated myself. Taking thirty minutes. Clean, shaven, and smelling great I got out and dried off.

I only had a small headache right now, but it was more like a dull ache at this point. Like something was just pressing on my mind gently.

I ate some breakfast. Normally I didn't, I was just never hungry around this time. But I knew that it was possible I wasn't going to eat the rest of the day. So eat now before I pass out.