Breathing in the silence. Contemplating if I want to get out of here or stay and find out more about this place. It's odd that I feel at ease in this place than at home. A place I refuse to call home. A mom who never shows up and a dad who preferred work than his family and died for it. Don't get me wrong I love them but the scars are too deep in to rationalize the world. I tried messing up my life. Suicide. Every single time a voice inside me stopped and said "this is not it". I forced my inner child to mask the pain. Treated her harsher than anyone else in this world saying she's weak. And had to do more. I pushed her so hard that she refuse to see me in the eye. My soul's chained to the wall and refused to release her from it. So I left here alone. Every time I look at an empty wall, I feel like my soul's staring at me with disgust. Ignoring me. Refusing my apologies. I sit there just looking at her hoping she is ready for me and accept me. "You've been quiet for a long time. If you can't sleep, do you mind guarding the cave door for me please?" "What a gentleman." Might as well sit there. Who am I gonna fight. Bugs? "Who are you?" "Caveman". That's self explanatory. I know he just wants to sleep but I can't sleep. "I see that. Who are you?" " Did your parents ever call you annoying?" "Yes." He chuckled and turned around giving in. "You don't put up a fight do you?" I don't like the glint in his eyes. "Not unless you mean something to me." His smile faded like I said something hurtful. He can't be hurtful for few hours of meeting. "Why were you alone in the woods?" "Just felt like walking." Truth now." "Just felt like walking alone." He blinked twice to see if I'm going to change my answer. "You just added extra word. Doesn't help at all." "Hold on. We're you following me?" "I was waiting for you." "What do you mean? I didn't fall by accident did I? Am I being sacrificed? Is this little cave your cult? You guys are psychos!! Omg! I need to leave right away. What are gonna do. Slaughter me ?" I started panicking. I mean, it's not insane for me to think I randomly fell into a hole like Alice in wonderland. Except I'm meeting heaving. Maybe hell. I started taking turns everywhere I found while briskly walking and ended up exactly where I started. I was gonna run again in a different direction but he grabbed me and held me against the wall. "Calm down. Your panic makes your situation worse. Always keep your mind cool and think of rational choice. Got it? Now take a look at the turns you made. You came back to your prey. Take a deep breath and look again." He's annoyingly right. Inhale. Exhale. I stood by the door and realized all the turns were visible in the first place. I couldn't think straight and just decided to sprint. "You're not gonna die." He whispered. A shiver crawled down my spine. "Not until I decide" I am not sure if he's joking or serious. "I am Ahriman. You can call me Ahri." "Like the devil?" "Some say I'm worse. I'm hurt" "then why the sly smile?" "I believe it's time you introduce yourself" I didn't realize until he revealed his name we were walking around nameless. Technically none of us felt the need to. If it's too late it would be awkward to call for him or worse ask him can I get your name out of nowhere. I can imagine the judgement. "I'm Esmeray. You can call Esmeray." "Like the dark moon." The glint again. "Do you believe in fate?" "I hope you and I meeting isn't fate." "Who hurt you princess?" Few people. Most of them I know. All of them. Okay? All. Doesn't mean I show it. I got my shit together. "You don't got your shit together." I am flabbergasted. Did he just read my mind? Can this cave voice my thoughts out loud? Wtf? "I was kidding! You look like I pushed a button." Oh good he didn't listen. I can breathe now. Wait. How dare he say that? Before I argue the cave started shaking vigorously. Cool. Calm. Collected. "What are doing? Let's Go!!!!!!! This is not the time to be thinking. We gotta be quick." "Wait you just told me to think rationally!" "Not when the cave is about to crash. Now run!!!!!!" "What? Why would it crash. What is going on?" "It woke up."
