Wild Romance

~DEVASTATED~

Kaynat's pov~
I felt my hair being moved from my face and I opened my eyes gradually and  saw him leaning closer to me and I got shocked by his gesture. He was really handsome and his soft touch made me insane. He only had his lower on and his muscular body was on display to me. In the dim lighting I could see his abs and his biceps. His hand was rough and for the first time I was this close to a man in my life. I was always busy in my work and joined my father's office after the completion of college. I was approached by many boys in  college but I accepted none of them and never went out with any of them. After my mother's passing away I spent my growing years with my maasi and had became an  introvert. I had few friends with whom I also lost touch when I came here.
I immediately shifted from my place and suddenly my  breathing got heavy. And then  I remembered that I had to stay awake until he comes as told by di but I slept. I apologized and can felt his gaze on myself. He came near me and asked for the reason of me apologizing from him. When I told him he said something that left me in utter shock!
"So? You want me to help you or something in changing them?"
I shivered and shook my head in a no. I just wanted to change into some comfortable clothes but he misunderstood it. How can he say something gloek that? He came near me and immediately his tone changed. He harshly told me to get up off the bed and  to go and sit on the couch. I obeyed immediately as this was  his bed and his house and I didn't want to make him angry or show him any kind of greed and interest towards him and his life.
I was confused when he spoke instantly as I was walking towards the bathroom.
He told me I cannot change my clothes and had to sleep in this only. When I tried to say something he held my wrist painfully and told me not to argue. I remembered the time my step mom used to say such things to me and whenever I tried to raise my voice she used to taunt me and say that i had no right on her as I was not his real daughter and now as she was my father's wife and owner of this house I had to obey her every orders. Those words hurt me beyond her imagination. But experiencing the same thing from my husband was not something I expected.
Why does he want to hurt me? Was I not capable of being loved by anyone?
I sat on the couch and wiped of my tears. I removed my nose ring as instructed by him and tried to sleep. But the noise of TV was not helping it. I looked at him sleeping on the bed and wondered he must have forgotten to turn it off and should I turn it off?
But I don't want to make him angry and again give him any reason to fight so I slept with the noise.
I didn't expected him loving me at this point of time but a conversation would have been good. We were married but he didn't even look at me lovingly. I was not used to being loved much but his behavior was hurting me from inside. Why did he agreed to the marriage if he didn't  wanted a relationship?
Firstly he got out of the car and even  returned late. And I even smelled alcohol off him. The way he held my wrist made me numb for a second and scared.
I decided that, From now on I will not do anything to make him angry on me  which was required as if I wanted to survive in this room with him. Tears flow down my cheeks and after some time sleep came over me and I slept on the couch wondering what the next morning holds for me.