jaylors beggining

you dont need this

1 week later :
taylor's pov :

i was on my couch ,where i had been for the past 4 days .i had only had one shower and watched about 20 romcoms .iv not answered anyone's calls ,not my mums ,not my friends ,and not joe .i was so thankful for what joe did for me ,unbelievably thankful .but since i met him he had only been saving me from situations.and i didn't want that for him or for me . let's face it i'm falling for him ,and he may be falling for me too ,but if he is he's not falling for ME because i'm not my self right now .and i haven't been for a while ..

in the middle of love actually i get another text from selena .

taylor where the hell are you ,are you okay ?everyone's worried about you .-selena

i'm at home i'm fine ,tell everyone that i just want to be left alone right now ,love u sel .-taylor

i knew that my friends only wanted the best from me but i needed to be alone ,and i knew i needed to text me mum she's obviously worried about me .

hey mum sorry i haven't been responding i'm fine don't worry love you ♥️-taylor

that should re assure her for now .but there was one person i couldn't bring my self to respond to ,joe . because frankly i was a little embarrassed about it .that's when i got another text .

tay, im worried about you ,we haven't talked since ..the night and i just needed to hear from u to know you okay-joe

this is the third message he's sent me .and i started typing but stopped myself .there's was no right thing to say ,so i said nothing at all .

before i knew it 3 hours has gone by and i smelt bad ,had fallen asleep on the couch ,hadent eaten anything not even like nuts in 3 days .i was STARVING ,but every time i went to get food ..i stopped myself .

i looked to me side when i woke up to see mer and olivia cuddling next to me .i wondered why i woke up so quickly ,almost like something had scared me .that's when i head loud knocking at the door .flashbacks come pouring in .the door bursts open .joes tied up .i'm crying on the bed with someone hovering over me .whne i snapped out of it i didn't even noticed the tears running down my face like a river .when i got up to walk to the door i looked at myself in the mirror ,i was a mess .mascara smudged hair messy ,in sweatpants and a t shirt .but i answered anyway .it was joe .

he had greg jeans and a white t shirt on ,he looked great ,and i ..didn't .he pushed the door open when i opened it up abit and came rushing in ."where the fuck have you been taylor !,iv been so worried "joe said with a slightly raised voice .i just looked down and picked at my fingers .that's when he noticed me crying .he came closer and put a hand on my cheek and began wiping my tears away .i put my hand over his and kept crying .

joes pov :

i was mad at her ,but i knew she was hurting so i was going to forget about it for now .i absolutely hated seeing her upset ,which she was a lot at the moment but it's was all worth it because when she was happy it made my heart warm .and when she laughs her eyes sparkle like iv never seen before .

i pulled her into a deep hug and she sobbed onto my chest not talking .i just stoked the back of her head and whispered into her ear "your going to be fine darling "over and over again .until she pulled out of our hug and looked up and me .i could see behind those mesmerising eyes she was wounded ,badly ."but what if i'm not fine joe ,what i'm in never fine ,everytime i lay down i see him hovering over me "she sobbed like that night and a tear fell down my eye too ,eveytime i think back i imagine how sacred she was and how helpless i was and it makes me want to be sick . and i knew right there in that moment i was going to fix it .

taylor's pov :

i knew i needed to end whatever this was with joe .i really really liked him ,and i think he likes me too .but he dosent deserve what's going to come and what we have already faced ."joe i think you need to leave " i said still sobbing .he scrunched his face up and looked confused and said .

"your not getting rid of me that fast blondie and smiled ".i chuckled but then my face suddenly turned all serious .

"joe in being serious ,you don't need this ...all this baggage that come with me .all the headlines ,paparazzi and ..just me , i don't deserve a good guy like you ..i don't deserve anything ." said looking down .he lifted my chin up and almost looked sad .

"you deserve everything in the world ,your perfect and i knew the risks coming into this and i still choose you after everything that's happened .a tear fell down my face .

"you don't know ME though ..i'm definitely not perfect ..i'm a mess "i said looking deep into his eyes .he pulled me into a comforting hug and said .

"even if your not perfect ,i'll take all the bad things if it means i get the good ones ".that's it ,that's when i knew ,i'd finally found a good one .

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SEE GUYS I CAN DO CUTE ONES .1989 TAYLORS VERSION OUT TODAYYY.i'm so excited i can't contain .well with the story most of the bad things are out of the way ..well not all of them .but don't worry i'm sure i'll find lots of ways to make it dramatic so stick around !