GUIDE TO THE POWER OF FOUR: BEHIND THE SCENES

RAINSTORM SPEAKS: NOTHING TO LOSE

I don't know what drove Toadstar to evil. But... I have an idea. 

Me and Toadstar are brothers. 

I know, I know, it sounds crazy.

Well, not that crazy. But here's the light story:

When me and Toadstar were kits, I was a total jerk! Always bossing everyone around. I feel guilt about that chapter of my life. Of course, it's over. And I would like it to be that way. I feel shame at my old life. The way I treated the cats around me. Sickening.

Anyway, I would always dominate over Toadstar when we were kits. Just telling him what to do. Like he had no choice in the matter. 

He wanted a choice. 

He wanted power. 

He wanted me to feel small.

He wanted to be the boss.

He wanted to lead. 

He wanted to do everything I said I would as kits. 

He wanted to dominate. 

I realized this one fateful day while sitting in my nest, Amberkit sorting the herbs for me. 

Thinking back to when I was forced a medicine cat. 

It finally clicked in my mind. 

That was the dawn of Toadstar's greed. 

He wanted no chance of me stealing his spot as deputy. He took control of my skill as a medicine cat. And then made me one. That sneaky little snake. 

That's when I stopped thinking about him as a brother. 

But it got worse. 

I had to witness my leader maul my apprentice Amberpaw.

And I couldn't fight. 

Toadstar had all nine of his lives. 

I was a medicine cat. 

I could tell. 

He had all of them. 

All I could do was watch. 

Maplepaw saved her. 

I couldn't. 

That's when I knew...

I had nothing to loose. 

When Stormstar came to me in a dream, saying that I could have more to offer than medicine... a choice in the matter. Power. He told me I would be a warrior again. 

I couldn't not. 

I had nothing to lose. 

I had nothing to lose.

I had nothing to lose. 

I had nothing to lose.  

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