He unlocked my car and sat me in the passenger seat before he got in the driver's side and left the lot.
I didn't say a word to him the whole ride.
when we pulled up to my place I stay sitting where I was which he didn't like so he got out came around and opened my door before he unbuckled me and pulled me out.
I fought him the whole way into my house and to my room.
He dropped me on the bed and straddled my lap.
"get off me" I tell him
"no we are gonna talk" he says
"if you don't fucking get off me right fucking now I'll knee you in the balls and I will make sure its hard and painful" I warned
He moved off knowing I'd damn well do it.
I sat up and went back to being quiet.
"I am sorry for saying what I had about you being nothing more than a croweater. I wanted you to hate me caseu I didn't want you to know how fucking madly in love with you I am. I've never had thought of claiming a woman or taking her as my ol'lady and wife. but the minute I seen you in the clubhouse here, and I got to talk to you or well you come and make yourself comfy on my lap I fell fucking hard. when you and I made love and I didn't reuse a condom I got hooked.And it scared the fuck out of me so I wanted to hurt you so you'd stay away from me. and I'd save the whole heartache if something was to ever happen to me." he says
I sit there crying cause he had done just as he wanted to. he has me hating him and hurt. Which kills me and breaks my heart so much.
"When I seen you dressed in this outfit and flirting with Tig then tell him you'd be his company tonight the whole idea and plan to stay away vanished and the desire and need to claim you and make you make took its place and I got pissed." he says
I continue to not talk.
"Hunner" he says
I looked at him with blurry vision.
"I am sorry." he says
"I am more than a fucking croweater. I am a fucking human being that has a heart and feeling. and I mistakeing ly fell in love with you a big mother fucking ashole who tore my heart out and stomped on it. and trust me when I tell you I'll never do that ever again. so please get out and leave me alone. you got what you were aiming for. I hate you and I'm broken. I don't want to talk to you anymore. I don't want to be around you or see you anymore. I have to mend my heart and go on like it wasn't torn all to pieces. I fell madly in love with you. wanted to have a life with you give up being a croweater and be with you. Yet when you said what you did that ruined everything." I say
"I don't want to leave you alone. I wanna fix this. I need to fix this. I don't care if you hit me scream at me or just not talk to me for a long time. I don't wanna be away from you." he says
I get up shaking my head and walk into my bathroom and lock the door.
" please Hunter you have to believe me," he says
"Just go away Happy. respect me enough to leave me alone. go fuck a croweater or pornstar. hell I don't care who you go fuck just leave me alone" I say
for a long while, I don't hear anything till I hear
"I love you and I'll make this right"
before he left.
I washed my face and stripped down before I got into the shower and cleaned up then I went and got dressed and made sure my house was locked up before I curled up in bed and just stared off into space till I fell asleep.
