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Oneshot #1: Zhu Zhixin, Ghost

An os about regrets, heartbreak and losing your first love. Inspired by the song Ghost by Justin Bieber. Written in Zhu Zhixin's POV.

𝕐𝕠𝕦𝕟𝕘𝕓𝕝𝕠𝕠𝕕 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜𝕤 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖'𝕤 𝕒𝕝𝕨𝕒𝕪𝕤 𝕥𝕠𝕞𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕠𝕨 ~

I got my longtime girlfriend a bracelet for her birthday. I know she likes simple but meaningful gifts so even if this is expensive (of course I won't tell her that) I know she'll like this. I customized it with our birthdays, her name and the day she answered me. I know that it means a lot to her. I put it on her arm without her noticing, she's looking at it now wondering how it got there and who it belongs to, and I'm here smiling like an idiot enjoying this beautiful view right in front of me. I don't think she noticed me yet.

I hugged her from behind and surprised her. "Happy Birthdayyy! That's from me." I said then kissing her on the cheek. She turns around appreciating the gift and hugs me. I wished that time would stop.

𝕀 𝕞𝕚𝕤𝕤 𝕪𝕠𝕦𝕣 𝕥𝕠𝕦𝕔𝕙 𝕠𝕟 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥𝕤 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕀'𝕞 𝕙𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕨. 𝕀 𝕜𝕟𝕠𝕨 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕔𝕣𝕠𝕤𝕤𝕖𝕕 𝕒 𝕓𝕣𝕚𝕕𝕘𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕔𝕒𝕟'𝕥 𝕗𝕠𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕨.

"Present Day"

I wished that everything stayed the same. Now I'm here sitting with my friends in the same spot we used to sit on during breaks. We fell apart, we fought, she didn't try to understand me, she didn't care and just assumed something when we could've talked about it. Yesterday I saw her, so happy. She's moved on probably thinking that I was the one that still did the wrong. Honestly I missed her, if things could go back the way they used to be it would be a miracle

2 Days Later:

She went up to me this morning while I was in the park, she tried talking to me about the situation. She said sorry for misunderstanding and not talking to me about it first. She continued on explaining that the downfall of our relationship was because of her. I know what she's saying is true but I didn't want to blame her that way just so that she gets my forgiveness. I know deep inside that it will hurt her and I didn't want that. Before I could say or do anything I....ran. I ran away from her, from everyone. I hopped on my vespa, a gift I got from her. Once I got home I locked myself in my room, tears threatening to spill out, I love her. I really really do but I don't think with our, especially my current state will allow us to be the same as before. I'm scared... scared of hurting her or losing her again.

𝕊𝕚𝕟𝕔𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕝𝕖𝕗𝕥 𝕚𝕤 𝕒𝕝𝕝 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕀 𝕘𝕖𝕥...

What I didn't know was that running away from everything would lead me to so many regrets. She kept trying to approach me after that day but I kept pushing her away because I was scared. I got home today getting ready to finish my tasks since I'm a group leader and we'll be presenting in less than 3 days. My phone notified me saying she sent me a voicemail. I didn't want to open it. She'll see that it says read but there would be no reply. I don't know what I'll say and I don't want to hurt her so I just ignored it.

Rain barged in my room, I didn't even know that he was here. He took my phone and opened the voice mail. I got up, annoyed. He knows not to touch my things or get in between my relationship with her. He's been avoiding me since he's her best friend. He told me he wanted to give me space. "Stop it! give it back, if you play that there will be no way out. I don't want to hurt her, Rain please!" I screamed at him trying to grab my phone back. "She doesn't want a reply, she wants you to listen! I never bothered to go in between whatever this is now but she wants you to listen and....and you really need to." He told me with what I can tell, he was on the verge of breaking down. I learned never to mess with him when he's like this, so I decided to give it a go. Without saying anything I just sat on the edge of my bed and stared at him. He then played the voicemail.

"Hi! I don't know if you'll listen to this but I'm hoping you will. I don't expect any reply back just so you know but I truly am sorry for all the things I've done that hurt you. It hurts me when you don't feel okay or when I hurt you. I look happy these days. I know, you must think I moved on from all of the pain but to be honest everything still hurts me. I just try to be happy and create the best memories possible while I still have time.... I don't expect you to forgive me. What I did hurt you and even if you run away, it hurts but I know what I did and I truly deserve it. I just hope that we can try to move on. I'm not telling you to forgive me and forget what I did but...while we still have time I want to spend it with you and the boys. I missed all of them. I missed you. I'll always love you. Everything I said before, all my feelings toward you, they were all true. I didn't want you to turn out like the others and I became selfish and pushed you away. I'm really really sorry, Zhi. If we don't ever get time together or talk again then it's fine. This will be our closure then. Take care of the boys for me, especially Rain. I'll forever miss you. Thank you for everything. Always and Forever, Zhu Zhixin. Goodbye. " The voicemail stopped and that's when I realized I was crying.