That One Phone Call[ON HOLD]

Chapter Seven: My Bestfriends,I can't live without them

Quote Of The Day: Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

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Chapter seven: My bestfriends,I can't live without them.

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Recap Of last Chapter

''Is she going to be okay?''I heard a muffled voice ask.It was clearly filled with worry and concern.It sounded distant.

''Yes she is''was the quick reply I heard.

''Why didn't she tell me?Why didnt you tell me?'' I heard the muffled voice say again. It sounded angry and as if it has been crying.

MARK!!

 oh no he knows about me having cancer.I have hidden it sucessfully for four months.Four whole months.Sure I did suffer with the mayo chemo but I didn't let it show.I had constant headaches,queasy stomachs and felt weak but blamed my pregnancy.

''Im sorry Mr Mark,it wasnt my place to tell you'' I heard a door close and then footsteps coming closer.Warm hands embraced my freezing cold hands.His hands were shaking and he sniffed as he said ''Why didn't you tell me?''

He sounded heartbroken.

He really does know.

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I have hurt him now more then I could have by telling him in the start.I always screw up.I should have listened to the docter from the start.Will I just pretend to sleep and not hear him? no, that won't work, the sooner I deal with this the better.I slowly peeled my eyes open.He was there.Looking straight at me.His eyes were clearly dissapointed and I felt like I wanted to cry.If only I knew what he was thinking.

I tried to get up but he wouldnt allow me,he gently pushed me back down.''Don't.Stay down and rest.The docter said you will need all the rest you can get.How are you feeling?''He finally spoke.He sounded broken.He really did.''I feel okay.How long was I out for?''I croaked.The longer it takes to get to the subject, the better.''Two days'' He answered.Oh my god,I was out for that long.I can't believe it.

''Oh'' was all i said.

The tension and akwardness in the room were so thick you could probably feel it from outside.And then came the unwanted question.

''Why didnt you tell me?'' I looked everywhere around the room but him as he asked this.

 ''I am so sorry'' That was my pathetic answer.

''Anne,please why didnt you tell me?that was really stupid of you.'' He sounded hesitant before he said ''em is it .....do you not want to have the baby?'' 

WHAT!?!? Where the hell did he get that assumption? ''What NO! Where did you get that from?Of coarse not Mark.I understand that I didn't tell you and that was really stupid and selfish of me but I didnt want to lose you.You can leave me now if you want because I was being a stupid cow for not telling you.But you can't by any chance accuse me of not wanting the baby.Of coarse I do and no way would I ever do anything to hurt it.So I do not know what has gone through your head to think that''I vented to him.Atleast if I let it all out this way I won't have anything to hide.