pearl ⇢ c. murphy

two.

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cillian rushed down the stairs and met tom and busy in the kitchen, "where the fuck is she?!" he screamed at busy. her eyebrows crinkled, confused. "wheres my fucking god daughter, busy?" he questioned walking into the kitchen. tom had never seen him as furious and anxiety filled as he did right then. he may be tommy shelby, but this was all cillian. "i-i don't know." busy said checking the find my friends on her phone. "what the fuck do you mean?" tom said upset now. "i. don't. know." busy said getting angry. "I'm the one whos been dealing with all the lawyer and media bullshit so don't you dare come after me." she said defending herself. "come after you? come after you? you lost a fucking 16 year old busy." cillian said, before walking towards the back door. "I'm checking back here." he said and tom nodded, heading towards the front to drive.

cillian's breathing picked up further as he went deeper into the woods. he was about a mile out when he heard crying. he quickly stopped, looking around before seeing the small blonde not too far out. she was sitting in the one area he thought he should of looked to begin with. her fathers tree. cillian slowly stepped further, trying not to spook the young girl. she heard footsteps not long after and cried harder, "i don't want to speak to you busy." she said and when she didn't hear a response, she grew confused. cillian walked further, taking in how much older her voice sounded. she'd grown in the last 8 months they hadn't seen one another. she turned around slowly, and cillian took in the devastated young blonde. his heart broke, watching as she realized who it was.

"cill?" she said brokenly, and he nodded slowly walking towards her. he fought back his own tears as she cried. she walked towards him and he quickly engulfed her into his arms, kissing her head as she cried. she sobbed into his arms, this was the second parent she was losing in her life and cillian was not sure how or if she'd ever come back from this. there is only so much loss one can take. let alone a child. "why?" she breathed, cillian pulled her in tighter. "why me? again." she cried out and cillian's own tears flooded his eyes. "what did i do to deserve this?" she breathed, and cillian rubbed her back. she pulled back, releasing herself from his arms. "it isn't fair." she said turning around and crossing her arms across her chest. cillian had no words, "i i don't know pearl. it isn't. you should have never lost your mam, let alone your dad." he said and she sobbed. "i promise, you are not losing anyone of us. i promise you that." he said and she turned around. she shook her head. she turned towards her fathers tree, which would soon have her mothers next to it. "i don't want to put another parent in the ground." she said, her voice collapsing. cillian nodded, biting his lips, eyebrows furrowing. she covered her hand with her mouth, sobbing once more. cillian quickly walked over in two strides, pulling her in once more. the daughter he never had, was becoming his. what rosemary would have wanted.

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cillian and pearl walked towards the back door, where tom was sitting. he stood up seeing blonde in the distance, and he gave her a small smile. she returned one, hugging him as soon as she walked up. he rubbed her back, as they both cried. cillian had yet to allow himself to. he walked inside, looking for busy. he heard the front door open, and heard jack gyllenhall's voice. he sighed, and stood where he came in. jake took in the man's stance, nodding towards him. "hey man." he said reaching out a hand to shake, cillian returned it. "how is she?" he asked peering behind cillian to see tom and pearl sharing a moment. "she's uh, she's having a hard time...she can't fathom putting another parent in the ground." cillian said coolly. jake bit the inside of his cheek, as busy walked past the two. "she can say hi to you, then we have to leave." busy stated typing away on her phone. the guys looked at one another before speaking up, "woah woah, shes coming with me." cillian said while jake said, "isn't pearl going with cillian?" to which cillian nodded to jake to thank him. "actually no." was all busy stated, and cillian's heart began to race. "no? where the fuck do you get off? arent you gunna explain it to us?" cillian demanded. tom was about to open the door, but saw the faces and felt the energy not suitable for pearl. "lets go to the dock." he said and the girl followed him down to their boat dock.