Don't let go- Tarlos

Exhausted

TK pov
Exhausted
That's all I can feel, I'm not fully aware of what's been going on since... well since before the accident but this days I really really  don't know what's going on, I feel like my body is trying to kill me, which if I  understood anything correctly of what they have been telling me that's really close to what's happening.
An infection, bad
Super bad
It's all I can understand
The headache makes me throw up, makes me dizzy and the meds aren't really working
The pain is on every part of my body, like I just run a marathon, but my leg, god my leg, feels like is on fire and at the same time someone is stabbing me
I'm sweating but can't stop shaking of cold
It's getting hard to breathe because of the coughing.

It's exhausting, my dad hasn't leave my side, but everything is worst knowing Carlos needs me and I can even open my eyes, I feel defeated.
Maybe I'll just go this time, I don't want any of this, I can't do it anymore.
So I'm there expecting the time to pass faster, but not having the luck

"Tk, are you comfortable?" My dad says checking my pillows

"Dad... it hurts"
"Tk, I know but they already give you the medicine half an hour ago, I don't think they can give you more"
"Please..." I try to explain myself but a coughing fit interrupts me
"Hey, here have some water" he takes the glass
But I can't stop coughing, I can take a breath, the monitors start sounding and nurses come in the room

The edges of my vision getting dark and it's kind of a relief because maybe this time the darkness will take me and it will never leave me
I can feel a mask on my face, pushing air into my lungs.

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"Help" I don't think they heard me with the mess that my world is right now but someone does
"What son" my dad gets closer so he can hear me " what do you need?"
"Sedation.... I—- please" it's all I Can says as another coughing fit strikes,  I've been thinking about sedation for a long time but I feel like a coward, but maybe I am, it's just that I really can't handle it anymore.

My dad face fills with worry and sadness but he smiles to me.
Not to much time later the darkness finally takes me and the pain desapears.

The next time I wake up I feel good, I can open my eyes without the lights leaving me blind and making my head almost explode.
The pain in my body is less, I can move without crying.
So yeah, good
I still have an oxygen mask

My dad says I was having a really hard time breathing and because my lungs were perforated they were scared my lungs failed again.
I was sedated about 3 days, this scares me...

Carlos ...

"Carlos!?" I ask my voice raspy for not talking in a long time
"He's still in a coma" my dad answers me
"What are the doctors saying?"
"They said that the swelling is going down, so they would take him of soon"
I can sense that he's not telling me everything
"Dad, tell me everything"
He stays quiet for a minute
"Dad"
"The seizures haven't stopped"
My heart breaks, like totally into pieces, he needed me and I was hiding into comfort like a coward
"Ok, I want to see him"
"Tk you just fight a deadly infection your body can't go through all of that"
"I finally feel not bad and I want to see him, I don't care if I can't take it, I need to do it, I owe him that"
My dad sighs, he looks tired
"Ask the doctor"
I nod

The doctor arrives later to the room
"Tyler is good to see you awake, how are you feeling?"
"Better, can I go see Carlos?"
"Well, you still are going to need oxygen and your inmune system is really weak, we can make it possible but you have to be careful"