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November 7, 2000 My Little Puppy

November. Just one more month until the new year. At this time of the year, my family is very strange. They... smile... Something my dad had never wanted me to do. If I ever did smile, he would just lock me up with our dog. We had 2 dogs. One that sits around and does nothing, yet my dad loves him so much, and then we have killer. A gray dog that will destroy a human within 1 minute. He put me there with killer before, and my blob how scared I was. Although, I soon realized that... there was nothing to worry. He was kind and nice. He actually let me pet him. I didn't understand. He would easily kill any outsider that came in the house, and he would recognize the sent of when we had killed someone. If you ever did kill someone, Killer would respect you. If you didn't, then be prepared for lunch time. And I would laugh at you if you asked what was for dinner. Anyways, I'm sure.. Positive even, that I had not killed anyone in my life! x stares at the blood, then the chopped of heads and then the dead bodies that have P carved in their chest x Okay fine.. I did kill people.. everyone I had seen outside were scared of me. Everyone... but this..one girl.. I remember her. It was sometime back when I was 4, when my grandpa, Was killed. This girl had wore the color blue like it belonged to her. Blue hair, blue dress, and I think part of that was white. She made me feel... different. I never really felt like that before. My heart racing, sweat coming down, I felt like I was being chased by a monster. I felt like my whole body was going to shut down, but it never did. I don't know if i will ever understand that feeling, and I don't know why it made me smile. I didn't understand anything at the time. Like that girl is something I need in my life, if I ever want to feel like that again. When she had to go home, my whole world shut down. I felt at first being carried by angles up to heaven, but then I crash landed on earth once more. She had promised me that she will come back later, then I felt a light in me once more. I had almost completely forgot that I had to kill her, but I let the thought slip threw my head. Why would I want to destroy something that is so beautiful? Like...like mother nature. Like the beauty life and nature the animals and the trees, and the... What?! Im losing my mind now... So anyway.. I went home, and then I fell in a hole wear the gray dog is. He suddenly was angry at me, and my dad suddenly came, got me out of the hole, and closed the cage the dag was in. He knew something was up, and the dog was his proof. He asked me if I had killed someone, and to tell the truth. I told him I had not killed someone, and he put me back in the cage. The dog could of nearly me, if I forgot about my knife. I took it out, and stabbed the dog right in its neck. He was crying in pain, and he looked at me in sorrow eyes. He tried to take a bite at my legs, but I simply kicked him from his chin. Then I knew I had to take another shot at him, to end him once and for all. I jumped over him when he fell to the ground with weak legs, then I took the knife, and stabbed him right threw his belly. The beast had been slain by then, and more blood came spilling all over the place. I was wounded badly, but I somehow managed to use all my energy to save myself. My father looked at me in shock, as if he had seen something better then his own wife. He unlocked the cage and told me to go to the cell. I did what I was told, and my father did not speak to me for the rest of the day. I had Killers body for lunch, and how interesting how a gray dog tasted. That was when I was 4 around that time. Today, since I have am stronger then I was when I was a child, my dad has told me to stay away from his dog. ( to be honest, I almost spelled dong instead of dog lol ) And with all of those events happening, I still wanted to have Killer alive. I missed him, but I will always know that he will be right here....In my stomach.