Riding the curves

Chapter:1

As I sat on my surf board, I thought about how this world is so unfair. If you aren't the size of a stick figure and have looks to kill, everyone will look down at you. People always judge you by how you look even if they don't know you.
This is why I never let anyone see me when I surf. I was taking a walk one day when I found a secluded spot behind some cliffs, and knew I found a place where I could be myself without constant judgement.
The reason I was judged was because I wasn't a beautiful model, no, I was one of those "rare" plus size girls that was criticized her whole life because I didn't starve myself to look good for people who will never give two shits about me when it comes down to it.

In my life I have only been on one date and refuse to believe every man in this world is a complete asshole. One day in my junior year Matt Theraman asked me out to go to dinner and see a movie. I thought I was the luckiest girl in the world, I mean Matt was as hot as fire, damn, and really, what could go wrong with dinner and a movie?

I couldn't have been more wrong. We got to dinner and i should have known something was wrong when I ordered and Matt gave me a look I know said "Really do you need ALL that?" I didn't think anything of it, considering I was thinking the same thing to myself. We finished eating, and headed to the movie theater. When we got there I, being the girl i am, wanted to see the new Rom-Com. Let's just say in the end I was sitting watching the new Terminators movie. As it got to a *cough* *cough* exciting part of the movie, I was close to falling asleep when I felt a cold substance running down my back.

I turned around and saw Matts friends, Anna and her bonehead boyfriend Anthony, and Anna was in the process of dumping her grape soda down my back. All i could think was "Matt do something!" But of course he just turned around, looked, and turned back to the movie. I was running down the isle to the bathroom, when suddenly i was tripped and fell right on my face. I rolled over to see Tony Alacaw standing over me laughing his ass off along with everyone else. I also saw that everyone also had their phones out recording me, then I looked down and saw my dress had ridden up through my fall and my panties were showing, but even worse than that, all my flab was showing.

Matt came right up to my face and looked me in the eye saying "Did you think that someone like me could ever date someone like you?" He then grabbed a handful of popcorn throwing it in my face. I came back to my senses and got up going to leave, when suddenly tons of people start throwing popcorn at me saying "Here fat ass want some more food?" I ran all the way home and into the house, my mamma seeing me and I knew she saw I needed to be left alone. I ran up to my room and cried for hours.

That morning I got up to see tons of notifications on my phone. I opened one of the links my friend Lana sent me. It was a whole video of the night before, and I just got more teary eyed watching all this. I swear my mom knows when i need someone to come and hold me. I knew she would ask what was wrong so I just showed her the video to get it over with. "Oh honey, don't listen to them, you are the most beautiful person you can be ." I knew that she was trying to make me feel better, but it just wasn't working now. I needed to be alone so i went for a walk on the beach outside our house.

As I found a nice spot to sit, the sun having long set by now, I thought how much this world totally blows. I would like to say i have never thought about just ending it all, but then i thought about everything i would be leaving behind, the most important being my mother. I know i could never put her through something like that, but sometimes its just so hard to keep moving forward when everyone wants to shove you back.

The way I get away from everything is surfing, I have been at it for almost three years now, and I have surprisingly gotten to be pretty good, for a big girl I guess. Nobody really knows i surf except my two best friends, Lana and Dominic, because I don't want to give everyone another reason to judge me.

I was just getting ready to head back home when i noticed where i was. I had walked to a part of the beach i hadn't been to before, and thought i should look around a little. The first thing i noticed was the prime surf spots, and that's great because lately the "cool" crowd has been venturing to my old spot. Then i looked down the beach and saw what looked like a little cave. I went closer and realized that it was actually a huge cave , and right now it was dry because the tide was out so i decided to check it out. Ok seriously this place is awesome the cave is the perfect place to sit and think or cool down after catching some of the awesome waves right outside.

I decided i would come back tomorrow and bring my board to really check this place out , and for now I need to get home so mom would stop calling me and calm down.