Riding the curves

Chapter: 3

           The last 18 years of my life I've never went to sleep and had someone else there to give me a kiss goodnight, have someone tell me "I love you baby, night.", or woke up with someone's arms around me.  If I had to say this would be the one thing that I would want most.

            I go to sleep at night thinking that I just want someone to want me and to feel arms wrapped around me like all the girls in the fake ass romance novels I read. None of those things ever happen in real life, I am not shallow enough to believe that I'll meet someone looking like I do.  Most people my size say they're so confident in their body, but I've been put down so harshly and cruelly that I don't think I'll ever feel that way.

           That's why that when I saw the hottest thing I've ever seen, I literately mean ever, paddling out into my lineup I quickly put up my walls and started heading in. I wasn't sure if he saw me yet but that was cleared up as soon as I heard "Hey you don't have to leave, there are plenty of waves out here!" shouted my way. I pretended not to hear and started pushing through the water like a damn windmill. He was now farther out than me and I certainly hope he doesn't get curious because by the looks of his muscles he could slice through the water in about half the time as my flabby arms. He didn't come back in, but he did shout out "Why are you leaving I can share!" Oh please, I could practically hear his smirk .

"I just wasn't counting on having company!" I yelled back.

"Well if that's the problem I can leave."

"No, no that's fine I was getting ready to leave anyway." I was slowly crying inside.

"Well if your sure. I really am sorry, I was just looking for a less crowded spot."

"No that's fine it's not like I own the water."

"Alright, I really hope I didn't scare you off for good.  I don't bite just so you know."

Ok, well that ended the conversation for me. All my clothes were in the cave, and that was the one place that I really didn't want anyone to see, so I just left them hoping I could come back and get them later. I threw the board in the back of my truck and hightailed it outa there. When I got back to my apartment I had to keep going over the conversation in my head. He sounded extremely cocky if you ask me, and I'm just happy he didn't see me standing up. I can't imagine what he would have thought.  

Well tomorrow I have a couple classes in the morning, and I was hoping to get my things from the cave before I go, and I also have the late shift tomorrow so I might have a few afternoon hours to go surf and hope that guy isn't there.

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I woke up at 7 and got ready for my 8:30 class. I grabbed some jeans and a 3 Doors Down shirt and took a quick shower. I have naturally curly hair and have tried to stop doing anything with it about 5 years ago. I also don't really do any makeup but some waterproof mascara and eyeliner, I mean it all gets washed off in the water and burns like a bitch.

I hopped in the truck and hurried down to the beach and parked the truck. "Fuck!" My stuff wasn't in the cave, and because I monitored the surf so I know that it didn't get high enough to take it out. "Shit!" That bag had a ton of shit in it. I cant deal with this right now because its 8:10 and I really don't want to be late for this class. Ugh this is going to bother me all day but I cant get back here for a few hours.

I got to class just in time, and thankfully so because our professor hates it when anyone misses anything. He started his lecture and I had a little bit of a hard time focusing, I had a ton of things on my mind.

The bad thing was that when I decided to go to community college because my family didn't have the money for university, all the people that were my nightmares in high school followed me here because they didn't have the grades for university. It's not fair, I mean I had 3.8 average GPA but no money, and they were completely opposite. Their families were all lawyers and doctors yet they just couldn't take the opportunities they had.

I am majoring in animal science right now because I have always had a connection with animals, this was something me and my mom shared.  I haven't decided what to do when I get my degree, but I hope things get better when it does happen because it didn't get better after high school.

I finished classes and hopped in the truck, and thankfully when I got to the beach there wasn't anyone else there. I surfed for about 2 hours then had to head back to the house to get ready for work.

I was still worried about my bag, but all my important things were left in my truck, so if it doesn't show up I won't be heartbroken about it, but I do really wish it would.

I got to work, and of course within the first hour of my shift they just had to show up.