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Birthday Special!!

It's been a while since Nari passed away.. She died on December 11, 2021. It's now August 18, 2023. My 21st birthday.

Xdinary Heroes is still growing, but we've released a total of 3 albums and even had our first concert. We've attended multiple festivals and preformed songs infront of large crowds. We even have our own lightstick now. We've also gone overseas to Thailand and the Philippines to attend festivals there.

Celestial is also doing really well. They've released 4 more albums and a single which is a memorial for Nari. The members are still sometimes found crying about Nari, but it's reasonable. Some members even had to go on a hiatus since they weren't doing so well. During their concerts and stages, they'd always leave Nari's spot open with a mic stand, a mic and hee guitar. There would also be a rose on her mic stand. Every concert they would also play Not Mine at the end, so it's also Nari saying goodbye to the fans.

The company had even put up a small memorial in the company just for her. It's at the entrance of the building so both idols and fans can come by and drop off flowers or put up a sticky note for Nari.

We've already celebrated my birthday today. I've gone live on YouTube, since  VLive is no longer active, and interacted with some loving Villans. Sadly, I wasn't able to escape the birthday kisses the boys gives to the birthday people.. But other than that, I got really good gifts from them and I really like it.

I sigh deeply as I put my guitar away in the bag, the others doing the same to their own intruments.
"I'm heading home now guys." Jiseok calls out as he stands up from his seat and walks to the door. "Anybody going to come with me?"

"Yeah, hold on, I'm coming." Gunil calls out, grabbing his bag and skipping over to him. Jungsu and Jooyeon then trail along. They all then leave ater saying bye to Seungmin and I.

While K was scrolling on my phone for a bit, Seungmin was cleaning the wires up around the room.

"I'm going to stay in a vocal practice room and practice for a bit." Seungmin says as he goes over to the door, smiling at me. "Maybe we can go home together if you're also going to be staying back?"

"I'm going to Nari's grave now and then i'll be going home." I shut my shoulders, putting my guitar bag on my back, us then both leaving the band room after turning the lights off. "I'll see you at the dorm."

"See you!" We then go our separate ways, him going further down a hall while I went to the elevators. I call an elevator down and enter it as soon as the doors opened. I then take my phone out along with my AirPods, connecting them and putting both in my ears, then blasting my main playlist in my ears.

The metal doors then opened. I quickly left it, scanning my idol card on a machine and then leaving the company and heading towards the graveyard Nari was buried at. It was about a 25 minute walk, but I made it there in no time.

I did also stop by a flower shop on my way and bought a bouqet of flowers to put on her gravestone.

I then walk through the concrete path, heading up a few stairs and walking a bit more up a mountain where there wasn't as many graves now. It was only a few.

I then see the oak tree which Nari's grave stone was at. I take my AirPods out and pause my music, shoving both my phone and the AirPods case in my pocket as I came closer to the grave, looking at the headstone with a small frown on my face.

'Han Juliet Nari. Born March 6, 2001 - Died December 11, 2021.'

I sigh deeply as I set the bouqet of chrysanthemums on the gravestone, then smiling softly as I take a seat in front of it, taking my guitar bag off and placing it beside me.

"Hey, Nari." I softly call out. "How're you? You doing well?"

It was then silence. I frown slightly as I let out a small sigh.
"It's my birthday, I'm turning 21 today. We met when I was just 18.."

Tears then slowly began to well up in my eyes, my lips quivering slightly. "I miss you so much, Nari. I can't stop thinking about you. When you were my trainer, you'd say that everytime we had a concert you'd be there. I'm still on stage looking at the crowd just hoping to see you there. Everytime I pass by Celestial's studio or band room, I try so hard not to cry because we had so many memories together in those rooms." I then use my hoodie sleeve to wipe my tears. "At this point, I'm not Junhan. I'm only Junhan when I'm with you, but guess what? You're not here, so I'm only Hyeongjun. A boy who plays guitar as a hobby, not as a career."

I then let out a small sigh as I stand back up on my feet, putting my guitar bag back on my back.
"I shouldn't stay here long, or else I might miss you even more than I do right now." I frown, wiping the rest of my tears off my cheeks. "I love you, Nari, I always will."

A strong gush of wind then came, brushing the fallen leaves from the mountain top onto the ground on the bottom.

I smile weakly as I wave at Nari's grave, making my way out of the cemetery while also wiping the remaining tears off my face.

I noticed that everytime I went to Nari's grave and was about to leave, wind comes and brushes by me. Even if it was sunny, there was wind when I was about to leave her.

I told the members about it and Seungmin said "Maybe that's Nari hugging you goodbye."

So that's what I've began to think. Everytime there was wind, it was just Nari hugging me goodbye.