The Diary of a Hypochondriac

Is it all in my head?

After scrolling for hours on social media, I realized how big of an issue health anxiety is. Being a hypochondriac is crippling; every single day, you feel like you're on your death bed. Every single day, the people you love (and your doctor) reassure you that nothing is wrong, yet you can't seem to believe them because what if you really do have that illness? What if your worst fear is actually true? That thought alone makes you panic, but there's nothing you can do about it. That thought makes you panic too. Every day, you're told that it's "okay" and that everything is "fine." You want to believe that so desperately, but you can't. No matter how hard you try, it's still buried in the back of your mind. It's become so bad that you've been nervous to even leave your house, afraid that something terrible is going to happen to you while you're away. Every day, this battle between mind and body goes on. Every day, you get more exhausted about what you can't control, yet you still worry. The chances of you having that one illness are slim to none; the chances of you having that disease are practically nonexistent. You understand this, but you're also so focused on the "What if?" Of it all, you don't stop and take a second to truly take it all in. Truly, nothing is wrong with you. Instead of worrying yourself to death every day over a fatal illness that could kill you, take a step back and breathe.