Memory Loss

Chapter 9

Drifting in the abyss, that was where she was.  Floating around as if she was as light as air.  Like she was a butterfly flying in the wind.  She felt at peace, even if a little sad.  She wondered if anyone would miss her when she was gone.  David always said no one would, no one would think of her, she would be forgotten about.  She wondered if Gary would miss her, she would miss him.  She'd think of him constantly, wondering what could have been.  

     She was angry with him yes, but she didn't want to be without him.  She couldn't be without him, not now.  It would be like losing a limb, almost impossible to live without.  Having spent so much time together, it would be impossible for her to live without him, and if she had to it wouldn't be a very good life to live.  The peacefulness soon left Lydia, instead she felt pain.  Pain all over.  It was excruciating.  She had never felt anything like it, not even when she used to get hurt by David.  It felt like her insides were getting torn apart.

     "Lydia... Lydia.  Are you awake Lydia?"  Her eyes snapped open at the point where she felt an immense surge of pain run through her. 

     "Aahhh!"  She grabbed her stomach as she writhed in pain.  She thought she was dying she was in that much pain. 

     "Lydia do you know where you are?"  A man in in a white jacket stood by the bed she was laying in.  She looked around her, she was lying in a white sterile looking room and she was wired up to a machine.  A nurse stood the other side of her checking the machines.  She had no idea what was going on.  

     "I... I don't know.  I'm just in so much pain."  Tears ran down her cheeks at the feeling that was running through her.  She just wanted it to stop.

     "I know and we're getting some painkillers to you now, but we need to know if you know where you are."  The nurse inserted a drip into her hand that would administer painkillers into her; she hoped she would feel better.  

     "I... I guess I'm in hospital, I can't remember what happened."  She ran her hand over her face and into her hair.  She had such a terrible headache, but luckily the pain in her stomach was beginning to turn into a dull ache.

     "You're in hospital because you were attacked, do you remember now."  She watched as the doctor wrote a few things down onto a clipboard he was holding.  She began to remember David and how he had hurt her, what he had said to her that had confused her so much.  And then she remembered her argument with Gary, the reason for her leaving the house and going to the park.  She became angry with Gary again all of a sudden, though she still wanted to see him.

     "The boys that I came in with, can I see them?"  The doctor nodded and left the room.  The nurse helped Lydia sit up slightly, just as she was settling back against the bed wincing in pain, the boys walked into the room.  Gary caught the look of pain on her face and his face winced along with hers in sympathy.  He felt even worse now seeing her in pain.  Gary strode across the room so he was sat on the chair right beside Lydia.  The boys then pulled up chairs so they were also sat around her bed.  

     "Hey you ok?"  Gary asked her softly as he took a hold of Lydia's hand.  She snatched it away from him, turning her head away and looking at the doctor who stood at the foot of the bed.  Gary's face fell at the harshness of Lydia's look, he was deflated and upset by the way she had acted.  He felt even more at fault now.