a dark night

chapter 15

I woke up that morning with what felt like a tight face, puffy eyes, and a crooked back.

Yet I was warm and comfortable, and something smelt amazing.

I snuggled further into the bed and also into a clothed chest. He groaned beside me and squeezed me into his body more strongly.

"Xavier," I whispered. I looked up to see his face. He looked so peaceful while he slept. His peace didn't come out often, even when he was tired.

"Xavier," I whispered again. His eyes fluttered open, he looked tired and worn out. I didn't know how to feel as I looked at him. "You okay?" I asked. He looked down at me and then turned around to look at the wall. He pulled his arms over his eyes and he groaned once again.

"fuck," He let out as he coughed the sleep away in his throat.

"you okay?" I repeated. I saw the slight nod of his head, but before I could do anything else, Xacier had gotten up from the sofa.

He stretched and I shamefully had to admit that I did look up at his bulging muscles in his back and arms as he did so.

He then made his way to the small kitchen and I got up to watch him.

"coffee?" He asked as he stood by the pot.

"yeah, thank you," I watched him move around the kitchen, he didn't look at me once. He didn't speak to me at all. My heart sank, had I pushed it too far? Had I scared him off?

He brought my cup and gave it to me. I looked up to him but he looked down to the floor. I took the cup.

"thanks," I said quietly. Xavier nodded firmly before putting his cup on the table and taking himself to the bathroom.

He was acting stage this morning, my heart sank and I felt...bad. He seemed with dawn, far away and in another land. I didn't know how to react. It just didn't feel right.

When he came back after a few minutes, he picked up his cup and downed the liquid in one drink. I watched him swallow it all, it did things to me, yet I was too upset to feel anything. 

"Xavier-"

"I'm going to go now, see you soon." He said before making his way to the door. 

"wait, Xavier-"

"look, I'm out of my depths, it's awkward." he looked at me, and after his words, I couldn't speak. awkward? he didn't need to feel like that around me. "I'm going," he said before shutting the door behind him.

I huffed as I laid back down on the sofa. I didn't know why Xavier's attitude had changed.

what was he going to do? what was he doing now? 

i wanted to scream, I was angry and just a little hurt. Xavier always seemed to run away from the things that scared him. it wasn't helping anything.

suddenly, I heard a knock on the door, and before I could even go see who it was, the door opened, and in came Kaite bouncing away with Mail on her trail, almost having to drag herself in.

I jumped two feet high on the sofa and the coffee almost went everywhere.

"you scared me!" I said as I laid a hand on my chest. Katie laughed as she plopped down beside me.

"I did knock" she stated. I huffed again as Mail sat on the armchair beside me. 

"what are you doing here?" I asked them. Mail seemed to snicker in reply as Kaiter looked at her firmly before looking at me.

"we were bored." Mail stated. I nodded but I was distracted. 

"bored? i wasn't bored, she made me come here because she wanted information on you and Xavier but didn't want to go alone." Mail replied as she snickered again. I looked to Katie as she smiled sheepishly.