a dark night

chapter 5

The actually school building was another building situated just a couple of yards away from the apartment buildings. It had an old fashioned look about it with just a splash of modernized furnishings. I hated going to lessons most of the time, i just couldn't wait to graduate. Yet,i'd rather be here than home. It wasn't a money problem, even through my mother was now rich since she married a rich businessman, but rather the lack of love and care i had growing up. I felt like an experiment more than a daughter.my father died just a few years ago, he killed himself right in front of me and it blew me right out of the water. He was my everything, the only person i needed even when i didn't get along well with my mother. He left me and i took it in a bad way. I had learnt to get on top of my feelings before they destroyed me. My mother was montrolling, infact, it was one of her best assets. She controlled me right to the point where i just couldn't handel it anymore. The was i talked, the was i walked, everything. Being a lady was something i had to learn not something witch i wanted. I wanted to be me, not someone my mother wanted as a daughter.

I just didn't understand. My father loved me, why did he want to kill imself and lose me? He knew how much i didn't get on with my mother so why did he leave me with her? I had tried to wrap my head around these facts for years but i couldn't seem to think of an answer. I was quick to be nasty about my mother but her husband wasn't to bad. He had obviously taken my fathers place and was to blind to see my mother was a manipulating witch, but other than that he wasn't so bad. He was quiet and laid back and that contrasted a lot against my mother. Living at home was hard when it didn't feel like home anymore. My father didn't live there anymore and it took the love from underneath the roof. I was grateful for all my mother had given me, a roof over my head and food on the table, yet i just couldn't bring myself to be nice about her. Growing up is hard but growing up with her on my back was harder.

'I sighed as I entered the school building. It's not like I try to forget everything at home, because I know I can't run aways forever. But that's all I ever do; run, like a coward. I don't look back, my body seems immobile even when I try. I barely regret anything, because I do things for a reason, and that reason is always enough. It was the way my brain worked.''emily!" my name was called as i turned to meet up with katie.mali was somewhere else, most probably doing her homework.''do you want to-" " don't even think about it." i held up my hand as I laughed slightly. "There's only a week left until the school year is over, just suck it up." she groaned. It didn't help that I had some exams this week to finish.

"I'm going to die." she cradled her head in her two palms. I thought i hated school yet katie seemed to despise it. She didn't have the attention span to stay seated and quite." you're such a drama queen." i rolled my eyes." i need to graduate you know." " you're not as fun as you used to be." she stated as the bell rang around us. "Fuck off." i flipped her the bird as i began walking to my lesson. I heard katie's laugh from behind and smiled. Students busted around me, but the corridors were wide enough for all of us to leisurely walk to lessons instead of being trampled on. The corridors were also a light shade of red and the floors were covered with dark wood. It was nice, relaxing even with a corridor full of teenagers.

The only thing getting me through today and probably all of this week was the fact there was only a week left of exams and end of term assignments until we had the summer. I was turning 20 in a few months, I was starting to feel like a proper adult. I made my way into the classroom and sat down on one of the plastic chairs.. They were not at all comfortable. Luckily, the lesson went by quickly and soon, it was dinner time. I loved dinner time, it was probably the best part of the day. Katie and Mali were nowhere to be seen so I made my way outside into the summer air and went over to sit on the branches. It was a warm day today, the weather was bipolar.

My body stopped as soon as i saw the familiar dark hair swaying in the wind. That familiar muscular body leaning against a big oak tree. He was alone something had compelled me to make my way towards him. I don't know why, i should have learned to keep my distance by now. I made my way over to his body. He had his legs laid out in front of him and his earplugs plugged into his ears as he listened to music. His eyes were closed and he seemed extremely relaxed. It was weird seeing him so worked up and angry yesterday to seeing him so relaxed now. He looked peaceful and i was almost sorry i had to ruin that. My heat skipped a beat when his eyes flickered to mine.