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Struggling

Hi everyone, It's Emily. Lately I've been a bit sad and struggling. Actually ever since the end of my freshman year. I'm going to be a Junior this year except I have very little friends. I've tried socializing but I've been afraid of rejection and it honestly sucks.

Like I actually broke down to my mom.

Basically my whole life I've been surrounded by friends who have special needs (both physically and non verbal disabled). I just finally wanted to make friends out of all that.

I love them dearly since I've known them since childhood, but it just hurts so much that people at school see me "differently". 

Like I can't bring myself to introduce myself first because of all the social anxiety I feel.

I've started feeling like this recently because I start school in about a week and a half.