I'm Yours

Mystery of Love

Toto's POV

Her question lay heavy in the air; it was not the tension that made it dense; it was the exact opposite, actually. All she did today was tease, and by no means were her actions tortuous; it was the fact she was doing it unintentionally. I wish she knew the effect she had on men, or for the first time, I found someone who makes me struggle to think clearly. Being around her made me feel warm, wanting her close to me, especially right now, even when she could barely make eye contact with me on her little proposition to unwind together for a bit. My heart gushes to protect her timidness, but soon, that will change; I hope she will no longer have to fear me when she requests anything because I will give her anything she desires. I soften my actions as I get up from the chair and step directly in front of her, almost towering her. I take my hand and use my index finger to hook under her chin and reply honestly, just above a whisper, "I would love to." Those doe eyes and her smile have me weak; only if she knew. I can get lost in the eyes all the time. I take this chance to lower and extend my hand to her. Y/N takes hold, and I lead us to the sofa.

This time, I want to position us and make it more comfortable since I am still determining how long we will have like this together. We walk towards the sofa, and I sit first and then look up at her; I won't lie. Seeing her standing in front of me in the little gap between my legs was a beautiful sight; she was assessing my every movement, but I couldn't help how perfect she looked, just ready. I let out a breath; I didn't know what I was holding and tried to stop my mind from running wild on the possibilities I could do with her like this. I take the chance to guide her on how I want her to sit and position herself so she is as comfortable as possible. "So you're going to sit on my right.....but you are going to lay both your legs across my thighs. That way, you can wrap your arms around me and lay your head on my chest if you want to.....Are you okay with that if I put my arms around you?" I don't often ask whether my actions are okay. Still, since this is intimate, her consent is a little necessary, especially since I want her to relax. She just nods, and even though I would take that as an answer, I need to draw the answer out of her; I want her to be vocal, "Schatzi, I need words." I was in awe to see her shiver; I hadn't realized that even though I spoke softly, my register was relatively low, but she reacted instantly. I see her gulp, almost clearing her throat to say, "Yes, you can put your arms around me."

"Okay ..... Good.... now come and sit," I nod and can't help but grin. I hold out my hand so she has something to steady herself as she sits to my right and then lifts her legs until they are over my thighs. She makes eye contact but then glances at my chest and back up to my eyes; I know she is silently asking again if I am okay, and I nod. She shuffles towards me to wrap her arms around me and lay her head on my chest. I am engulfed in her warmth; she radiates so much heat it's intoxicating in the most pleasant way. I take the chance to wrap my arms around her waist and lean back into the sofa so I'm not stiff as I sit and look down at her.

I couldn't believe she was in my arms again. I take the chance to sit and reflect on the previous day and all of today's events. Everything has so far been surreal, and the thought of this all ending soon in a matter of days will kill both of us. I have never craved anyone more, but Y/N is the only person whose touch I want the most. She has become a necessity; I don't know how I will last long without her touch. I need to devise a plan to bring her to England during the winter break, give her a tour of the facility, and get her used to everything before starting in February. That's the plan; it's away from her to get used to her future normalcy and would be a nice vacation for her. I pull myself out of my own thoughts and check to see if Y/N is comfortable and to break the silence. "Y/N...." "mhmmm....." "Are you feeling okay?" "I am quite content, actually." "That's good to hear," I just feel her nod. "I have never felt this peace before; everything feels right, Toto." I know this will break a boundary, but I kiss her head and then rest my chin on top of it. Her responsiveness to my actions brings another level of possessiveness; she melts further into me. "I couldn't agree with you more, Schatzi." I feel the vibration of her hum. We sit in silence for a little more until I feel her arms uncoil from around my torso to place them tucked in between her body and lay on my torso. She softly speaks, "No offence, my arms got tired, and you are huge to wrap my arms around." Her comment made me chuckle, "It's okay, as long as you are comfortable, that's the only thing that matters to me." in saying that, I placed another kiss on her head.