When I got home, I made it to my room to instantly changed into more comfy clothes. Like a red fluffy jumper, black sweatpants, and some mix matched socks that I was too lazy to sort out. I flopped on my bed and grabbed my phone to see that I had a missed notification from Instagram. I tapped on it and let out a sigh.
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Ben: Hey
Ben: Is there anything I can get started on?
Ben: Please, I want to be friends again
Me: Hold your horses cowboy
Ben: ???
Me: Take a breath
Me: I need a bit to think bc I honestly thought you wouldn't actually want to change and you were just being a desperate bastard
Ben: wtf
Ben: If I didn't want this I wouldn't have stopped u in the music wing
Me: Well, I'm still bitter about the letter and I don't even know if you can be trusted
Me: But if you are sincere, apologize to Charlie.
Me: Face to face.
Me: Prove that you can be empathetic.
Me: Then, we'll talk about this more.
Ben: Okay
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I tapped out of Instagram and went to my Spotify. I grabbed my headphones and put them on, closing my eyes, letting my brain wander off as the music caused a magical feeling to course through my body, giving me inspiration to write. I was a currently an author on Wattpad... Yeah, not many people know of it because everyone would instantly assume that I wrote smut... And they weren't exactly wrong. I had a couple of famous books with over 1 million reads that had a bit of... Suggestive content here and there, but it wasn't like a whole porno. It was a small, almost rare occurrence.
But the thing was, I was having severe writer's block. The book was based off of me, but the readers didn't know that. A transgender male in a boys only school that had a broken heart.
It was kinda ironic that I didn't know what to write about myself, because ever since Ben and I grew apart, I've been alone with my thoughts, other than seeing Tao, Elle, and, Issac around the house, and occasionally Ollie's friends from his year and having to make sure they don't cause chaos.
My phone vibrated against my chest, making me look up, feeling severely uncomfortable, as I was was feeling insecure. Just a touch of my chest or against my binder makes me feel... Gross. I instantly lifted my phone up to see a notification from Ben. I hesitantly tapped on it.
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Ben: Is it okay if I walked to school with you tomorrow?
Me: I take the bus with Charlie, Ollie, and Tori. Sorry.
Ben: Oh
Ben: Can I meet you at the stop?
Me: The bus driver probably won't allow that
Me: Maybe at school where the buses park?
Ben: Yeah sure
Ben: That works
Ben: Also, I need help apologizing to Charlie
Ben: I'm not sure how to do it
Me: Say that you're sorry because*thing you did*
Me: how did you hurt him btw?
Ben: I met up with him when I felt like kissing a boy and left him when he couldn't make it I'm not sure if I'm gay or not I still like women, but idk
Me: Jesus Christ
Me: So you're having a sexuality crisis and you tested it on my brother?
Ben: Yeah I just realized how bad that sounds
Ben: I'm sorry
Me: Don't apologize to me about that. Apologize to Charlie.
Ben: OK
Ben: Then?
Me: Only time will tell
Me: I have to make Ollie some dinner, so I'll see you tomorrow ok?
Ben: yeah
Ben: Good night then
Me: GN
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I sighed, rolling out of my bed and walking downstairs as I literally had to make dinner tonight. It was also kind of an excuse because I was still hesitant to talk to Ben. I made my way to the kitchen and began to start cooking.
It felt weird talking to Ben after all this time. Especially right after Charlie broke up with him? My inner overprotective brother came out and I literally snapped at him and now he's crawling back? This literally makes zero sense to me.
But hey, everything happens for a reason... Right?
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Make Me Good - Ben Hope x Reader - Heartstopper
FanfictionAs soon as Charlie broke up with Ben, he told his brother, Y/n, who was in the year above him. Y/n knew Ben, as they've had the same classes for years. Around their fourth year, they stopped being friends as they grew apart from each other, so heari...
