𝘑𝘖𝘚𝘏𝘋𝘜𝘉 𝘟 𝘙𝘌𝘌𝘒𝘐𝘋

Cleaning

Ant POV:

Time felt like it was going by slow. But in reality, it had already been two months. I had around three months left here, I wasn't ready. I know I've thought about this a lot, and I've tried to come to terms with it. But I wasn't ready. Not now. Not ever.

I've thought and my brain literally can't comprehend living a day without Josh, and I know it sounds stupid. But it's true. It's become impossible without him. I swear I can't even go two full hours without pestering him to hang out with me or something. It's childish.

I've also, somehow, ended up sleeping in Josh's bed a lot more often. It's basically become routine now, and I'm not sure if I should be happy or weirded out by myself on how I accomplished that. I'm happy now, at the moment.

It was morning, the sun was lightly peeking in past the curtains and I was just lazily looking up at the brightening ceiling. Josh was beside me, it was warm. Everything felt warm, safe. I have seemed to always wake up like this. 
I'd dream of days where I wouldn't be here, then waking up to literal heaven which was the opposite of the dreams - nightmares. I loved that I was here, with Josh. It felt right. Truly.

I felt the older man grumble beside me and it made me chuckle. Staying here longer I grew to know that he actually hated mornings. Unless it's a day where he gets to annoy me or something; he'd be lights out until ten am. And I didn't mind. But today I had to. Today was important.

A few days prior Josh had told me the boys would be coming over. Of course I was surprised, I've literally only met Mully. And what, was that two years ago?!
I had asked why, and he had just said, "cause they wanted to."

Yeah, cause that's a fucking reason to fly half way around the world. But I got passed that and just became happy that they were coming over. I didn't know how long, but I don't honestly care. Seeing them may even bring me some kind of grounding to the world, especially after what's been going on.
I'm not sure if they care that much about me, we've only talked a few times, but if I mean a lot to Josh... surely they would care?

Whatever. It doesn't matter. Not that much. All I need is probably just Josh, yeah. He's great...

"Ant have you seen my phone?"

Ok. Voice asking me something... get out of your head, Ant... C'mon...

"Ant?"

Blue eyes...

"Ant?!"

Seriously. Stop thinking about Josh.

"Ant!"

SNAP OUT OF IT.

"Uh-uh yeah...? Sorry what'd you say?"

I turned in bed to look at him, having a sheepish smile on my face that happened to look awfully untrustworthy.
He frowned, his arm propped up so he was more looking down at me,
"Did you even hear what I said?" Wow, well that came out sassily.

Again, I smiled, then I shook my head, "Nope." Wow, and that came out proud. What kind of a morning is this?

Josh sighed, he was giggly. And that's definitely not something I'd usually see recently; he's been too stressed about his channel and the boy's visit to be anything but.
I'm glad he's feeling more up. At least someone in this house is..

"Looks like you had a nice sleep, Ant."
Those were the words to bring me back to reality.

"Yeah. Your bed is pretty comfy." I smirked, knowing just the words to bring Josh to be a bit more pissy.
Not that I wanted it that of course... well, maybe. Seeing him get this cute little grumpy face on has been a large highlight of being here.

Though he just sighed, rolled his eyes, and got up out of bed. I raised an eyebrow as he turned at me and smirked, it was unsettling. I knew what this was. And I didn't want to do it. I hate this. But he had to say it, make it out there and known. Great.

"Get up Ant. We have to clean," God, I hate that word. "The boys are coming today at five!"

- - -

"Fucking finally!!"

I almost screamed, arms up in the air in victory, a vacuum discarded to the side as I stand proud.
Soon I see Josh coming into the living room with a small smile looking at me, it makes me smile as well. 

"What?" I giggled, seeing how he was looking at me,

"Nothing, just... You make me happy."

"..."

My insides are boiling. My heart is racing. My skin is reddening. My eyes are widening. My voice is cracking, "Uh-" And I don't know what to say. 

"You cheesy fuck!" Nothing better to say than that. 

He chuckles more, 

"Come on, they'll be here any minute!" 

Sorry besties... Me and My lazy ass will now make a vow to update EVERY second Sunday!!! but if I finish before then I'll probably update (I still go to school and have other work) Love y'all;)