𝘑𝘖𝘚𝘏𝘋𝘜𝘉 𝘟 𝘙𝘌𝘌𝘒𝘐𝘋

One Month

Josh POV:

Waking up with Ant in my arms was something I was used to. Funny enough, to my memory, it's been like this for at least the span of a month. After Ant began sleeping in my room, it was second nature to have him wake beside me. It was normal. His light breathing, the beat of his heart. I could recognise it in an instant.
But that knocking at the asscrack of dawn? Fuck no.

"C'MON! Up you get Josh and Ant! Breakfast's ready! If you don't your asses down here quick the guys are seriously gonna eat everything!" I heard Will yell from the other side of the door, a slight giggle in his voice. That fucker.

Yawning lowly, tucked away from where Ant was snuggled deeply into my chest, I gently unwrap my arms from him. Mornings weren't always my favourite thing, but it definitely wasn't Ant's. Hoping not to startle him, I speak soft, "Morning, blondie. Wake up~"

I see him squirm and tuck deeper into my chest pulling me closer and the pillow further over his head, "no." I hear him mumble.

This kid. Hah.

Shaking my head, amused, I look back down at the blond mop of hair. "C'mon mate, breakfast is ready! You don't want the boys to eat everything before you even take a bite, hmm?"

He squirms more, but doesn't resist when I pull him to a sitting position, he rubbed the sleep from his eyes and looked over at me, and holy shit. Holy shit. He was going to be the death of me. The soft puffiness of his face when he wakes, the messed up bed hair, and his pout! Jesus Christ.
I hurriedly look away, I could feel my cheeks heating up. Fuck.

"Uh- c'mon. Breakfast is downstairs. I'll- I'll let you get changed." My words are rushed out, almost slurred as I scramble out of bed. Making my way to the door I look back once to see Ant tiredly taking his shirt off to dress into another- fuck. Look away!

I close the door silently, all of this. All of this is still in the boundary of a friendship right?

***

About ten minutes after I make it down, I finally see the tired eyes of Ant once again. He must have had a shower - his hair being all wet and curly. Hmm, I didn't know it went curly when wet.. I wonder- "Josh! Mate. Do you want any more bacon?"

I need to get my mind right.

"Uh, yeah! Yeah, thanks."

Eddie gave me an odd look, I saw him glance between me then to Ant, but shook his head as I looked down to the food on my plate. I seriously need to get it together.

Most of us were sitting down around the dining table when Ant came in, though no one raised their head. I kept my eyes down further, fixed on my plate, I almost lost my breath when I felt his leg brush up against mine, he sat next to me. Fuck.

As I tried to clock out of this moment, everything in me was just screaming at me to come back. Talk to him, smile at him, feel him. But that kind of cheesy shit wasn't going to stay swirling in my head, so I shut it down, turned, and just started talking to Gaege. Yeah, ignore the problem and it'll go away. This is going to be fine I'm sure.

"Hey, Josh?" Fuck fuck fuck. I turn around, pursing my lips in disdain, the boys really don't need to see how I act around Ant. What if they thought it was weird? Like I was some freak? Shit. Ok, just listen to Ant right now.

"Hey, you listening? Josh?"

"Sorry," I blink, the fuzz slowly leaving my brain as I ground to Ant's voice. He smiled softly at me, this sent me into turmoils as I tried not to react to the warm feeling in my heart. Damnit! what is going on.

"Hey, uh- I need to remind you of something,"

Something pinched deep inside me, a thought that tugged but I wouldn't let come in.

"I just remembered," he said,

"As of now I'll only have a month left here till I turn eighteen!"

And at that very moment. My heart sank to the bottom of the ocean. One month?

Hey pooks. Sorry this is short. Oh well:/ love y'all and plz comment😍😍😍