Stockholm Syndrome(Dazai X Reader)

FEAR

I woke up like normal as usual, but this time without Hunter. It's been weeks since they left. I miss him so much. Kaito and I haven't got a chance to talk, he must be busy with work. 

I wonder how they are doing right now? I'm sure they're fine. I got up from the bed and did my morning routine. I finished everything I had to do and decided to work. 

“Let's check my mail first.!” I opened my laptop. There are a lot of emails, mostly from clients. I scrolled down and read some. It's all feedback about my design. I'm so glad they all love it. I couldn't help but smile. 

“Let's see more.” I kept scrolling until I saw an unfamiliar mail. “Hm. Who could this be? I don't remember this username.” I checked the date, and it was sent last week. From "osamud19.."

I stopped for a second and stared at the name. Why do I feel nervous seeing this? Ah! Snap out of it. I should stop overthinking too much. I shake my head and nod to myself. Why are you nervous? It's probably a client for sure. I'm not supposed to remember all of them, can I? I shrugged, then I finally opened the mail. I try to read it out loud. 

“Hello, Dear Y/N. It's been a week since the last time we saw each other. I miss you so much that I think I'm going crazy. You probably had no idea who this person is. I'm sure that you are very confused right now reading this, but worry not, you'll probably figure it out. So I suggest you keep reading until the end. ;). How are you? I hope you're doing fine, make sure to stay healthy. I can't wait to see you again. Get ready for that. I'll be coming for you. Of course I won't tell you when. It's a secret. I wanted to surprise you after all! I can already imagine your reactions! Ah~ I'm getting excited. Hahaha! Please look forward to our meeting. It's very soon! Oh, before I forgot! I decided to give you my book in our next meeting. You know you love it, The guide to a perfect suicide.–” 

I couldn't finish reading the email when I fell down from my seat. My whole body is trembling, my eyes widened in fear and narrow in disgust. 

Seeing the last message, a flashback keeps coming to me. It's him! The man! Fear fluttered in my stomach. How did he know my account?! Did he know where I live?! What should I do? I couldn't think of anything else. I cursed. My mind was in chaos. What should I do? What should I do? Do I hide now? What if he comes here without me knowing and kidnaps me like last time? Should I call the police? But what would I tell them, should I tell them that someone is trying to threaten me? They won’t believe me if there's no evidence! My body went cold with dread. I’m so fucked up. My tears started running down my face. My heartbeat was so loud, I don't know why this is happening to me. Why, why me? It's unfair. I cried out loud, letting myself feel the cold floor.

I have to call Big brother, I’ll tell him everything this time. He could help me. I flinched. No! I can't let him know for now. I don't want to worry him, I don't want to be a burden. I took a deep breath. I closed my eyes and tried to ignore this dark fear within me. I can't stop my tears, but I try to calm myself a little.

“Relax, it’s going to be okay.” I whispered to myself.

I should give him a call and try to ask if it's possible for him to get me. Regrets started eating me alive. I should've gone with him when he asked me. It was all my fault, everything was my fault. My legs are shaking. I can't walk properly but I tried to stand up to get my phone. I hate myself for being weak. I unlocked my phone and tried to call Kaito. I hope he's not busy. 

“Please answer.” I tried to steady my breath and try to calm the panic. But I couldn't stop biting my nails. Ugh. Why is he not answering? Please, please answer your phone. 

“The number you have dialed cannot be reached at the moment..” What is he doing right now? He must be working. I dialed again just in case, but suddenly some unknown number was calling me. I furrowed my brows. I don't have time for this. I ignored the call and dialed Kaitos' number one more time. Please answer. “Fuck.” My heartbeat is beating so fast. Fear cripples me, freezing every muscle of my body.