my life

my first crush

Yeah he was my first crush and last .. till now... I was 9 years old I guess . I cant remember all the details because we lasted for 3 years. Yea I was young but I had true feelings for him .. he was like my everything. Few years earlier, i went everyday after school to my grandma's house , he was our neighbor. I could see him from the balcony and he was always standing on the window. He always waited for me to get back from school and every friday he surprises me by a really cute look and a flower... haha wondering about his age? Well he was 13 but immature i dnt know what I have seen in him .. he is not handsome, stupid and selfish. These days whenever I see him, I send him a disgusted look and he just stare at me selfishly. God.. I hate him now... really... anywy once we had a celebration at my grandma's house and he was invited .. we talked at the balcony and he was about to kiss me .. but I was so shy that I just runned into the room ... ^.^ .. I didn't wanted anyone to know about us.
Every time my cousin comes for a visit, he always comes with him.
We spent 3 years sending letters for each others : I was throwing the letters from the balcony and he catched them. And he was sending them with my grandma's maid. Heyy don't judge. .. both of us didn't had cell phones. And this way was cute and romatic .. haha who am I kidding? It was annoying and hard... everytime I would throw a letter .. I must check the balcony more then once just to assure that no one was watching. And to be honest.. his letters were hilarious.. he is so a not romantic person who is trying to be but that didn't worked.
One day.. we were at a wedding.. I was going to the bathroom with ghenwa .. I guess you guys know who she is but for those who forgot.. she is my cousin and also my bestfriend... so we went to the bathroom and when we were leaving I saw him waiting for me. He smiled and expected me to go and talk to him but he was wrong ... I just kept walking toward my table. Rude right? Well no I did that because I saw him FLIRTING with another girl and that is how I broke up with him and since that he starts to act like a jerk. And that made me hate him more.
Ohh I forget to mention how we first me.... it was a sunny day ,I decided to play in the empty place in front of my grandma's house... and I met him ... we sat on the swings and talked for like an hour... then I started to talk to him from the balcony and TADAM we fell in love ... I dnt if that was the case .. we just had feelings for each others we didn't know what love means.
And that was my first relationship and my last one... it's good to live free.... but I may have a new crush now .. hahah ... maybe.