A/N
This is so toxic I can't even breath started out alright but then it took a turn
Lerato
He's a sadist, I knew this a long time ago but I decided to ignore it. He never showed me how bad it could get so I held on to the charade he kept showing me.
Anger issues and lust that's all our relationship has ever been, I genuinely wish I could say I hate it or something that others will consider normal but the truth is I don't. I never wanted him to pretend to be nice, I was never in this to try change him. I wanted to experience it... His sadistic side, the one he's never shown me.
I curl my body up and hug my knees, tears stream down my cheeks and I feel powerless to stop them... I relish in the feeling of what just happened and take a moment to completely feel all the damage he's done to me. I struggle to recollect my thoughts while walking back to the room, I stand under the shower until the water runs cold even then I don't move, I think philani grows concerned and comes inside, he curses before stepping into the shower and turning off the water, bridal style he carries me to bed and wrapped my wet body in a fluffy throw.
He craddles me and no one says a word. His phone rings and he picks it up.
Him: yah....to the warehouse.... I'll be there.
He hangs up and throws his phone across the somewhere on the bed.
Me: are you going to kill him
Him: yes
I nod my head bury it in his neck, his arms tighten around my body.
Him: I'm sorry
I don't say anything.
Him: lerato?...
I don't know what to say but I don't want him to get angry.
Me:it's ok
Him: no It's not ok, it'll never be ok unless I get help, I don't want to keep...
He takes a long pause before he continues, but I don't hear a word he says. My mind goes back to yesterday, when kgosi called me, he told me about how he finally got bail and I broke down as he told about how much I owed him and that I should pay it for him.
Philani: are you even listening to me?
Me: yes I am I just-
Philani: I know you fucked him.
My body freezes, he senses this and hugs me even tighter, I glance at him and his jaw is moving even though he isn't saying anything.
He kisses my forehead and tells me to quickly get dressed, I'm taken aback by his words but comply. A few minutes later we both get in the car and he drives fur about an hour, I look out the window the whole way since he isn't talking to me.
The car stops and he tells me to get out we parked in front of an unfinished construction site not far from where he parked I see three figures two standing and one kneeling. Every muscle in my body tells me to turn back and run but as if philani senses this he holds my hand, the grip tells me a lot about his mood.
We begin walking towards the other people and I begin to notice that the kneeling person is kgosi and he looks like he's almost dying. I stop walking and philani pulls my hand.
Philani: Mina ungangi casuli asambe...
(Don't make me angry let's go)
He pushes me down and I'm next to kgosi in a minute sitting on my ass.
Philani: show me.
I give him a confused look
Philani:show me what he does that I can't do... Fuck him
My body is frozen a mixture of shock and fear consumes me.
Philani grows impatient and rips my clothes off.
Philani: if you want him to live then fuck him... If not then here...
He reaches behind him and retrieves a gun from his waist. He then throws it at me.
I realize in horror what the ultimatum is. Kgosi looks at me pleadingly. I try to say something but I'm stopped by the scary look philani gives me. I begin to cry with trembling hands and pick myself up off the floor and aim straight for kgosis head. Shaking I pull the trigger but miss his head by an inch. The coward stands and runs but one of philanis men shoots him dead as just as he's about to disappear from sight the two men walk towards the body. A cold breeze runs through the air reminding me that my shredded cloths are scattered on the floor.
Thoughts?
